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Keith G. Alderman

  • Why Empathy is Killing the Church


    I do not mean empathy by definition. Instead what empathy has become. 

    Many of us saw the cartoon a decade or so ago that explained sympathy vs empathy as a dichotomy between “that’s a terrible thing you are going through; now pick yourself up, it’s not so bad” and “I’m sorry this happened. Let’s sit here and feel it together.” 

    I believe this little video had good intentions, but ultimately was used by the Enemy and some very crafty individuals to plant a seed that the act of encouraging and helping someone change to succeed is a terrible notion. And rather, to let someone stay as they are and feeling all of their pain, anguish, and misery is, not only normal, but superlative. 

    This form of Empathy was formed as an idea of psychology and counseling, a way to walk with others out of their grief, rather than force them from it. It makes sense for a carnal counselor to reason they have no solution to the world’s problems. 

    But ultimately, Empathy had no business in the Church to begin with. Jesus never used empathy. He used compassion. The difference here being, he did not merely feel our pain (which He definitively did) but gave us the solution, freedom and atonement from it. 

    When we use a model like “let’s just feel your pain together” as the cartoon suggests, whilst simultaneously having the salvation from such pain, we are acting like one who refuses to give a life vest to a drowning individual only because that individual may need to feel his drowning to the end. What’s worse, empathy suggests we get in the water with the individual and start drowning ourselves so that we can feel what they are feeling, too. The Drowning Man turns and says “Oh, are you drowning, too?” “No, I have a lifeline tied over to the shore actually. I just wanted you to know I feel what you feel.” 

    What’s even more terrible in this metaphor is that I’ve seen the equivalent of the Drowning Man asking the other with the lifeline if he can grab hold and use his lifeline, too. But because of some misguided view of empathy, political-correctness, or (unfortunately to be true of most western pastors) a fear of being sued for offering his lifeline, the man tied to the shore refuses the Drowning Man any more help than merely treading water alongside him. 

    The Drowning Man may find some other lifeline elsewhere, or perhaps a better representative of salvation to help him to shore, but most drown in misery. 

    A perfect picture of “empathy versus compassion” in the Bible is the story found in Matthew 9:23. Jesus enters a house where a little girl has died. The flute players and wailing mourners are there parading all their empathy. The Christ declares she is only sleeping and they immediately ridicule and scoff at him. He kicks the charlatans out of the house and raises the girl back to life. 

    Again I’ve experienced this moment exactly. Where I’ve personally witnessed such miracles as raising my son from the dead, healing our daughters of Down syndrome diagnosis, cancer disappeared, deaf ears open, tumors popped, broken bones snapped into place, and countless lives restored to peace and joy, I’ve also encountered those who act as though they are compassionate, but are rather mere charlatans who grow offended when you offer life and healing instead of just accepting what life has already dealt you. 

    Empathy has turned into the show of wailing and flute playing, offended by true compassion and help. “How dare you suggest that person needs to change in order to find happiness! They are perfectly fine in their sin!” 

    A church that preaches empathy without action (by definition, compassion) is a farce, a demonic circus. The minister who suggests we feel the pain of others instead of offering salvation is a minister of Satan. And it’s a religious sort like this that mocked Jesus for being who he was and were thus kicked out of the house. 

    Now, some of my more literate colleagues will point out the verse found in Romans 12:15. “Rejoice with those who rejoice. Weep with those who weep.”

    And for that, I applaud you. You found the one verse in the New Testament that would suggest we feel others pain. But this  idea of empathy is not without action. In fact, the 20th verse tells us to feed and clothe such a person. Not to leave them there. And our food is not bread alone. 

    Empathy with action is compassion. And this is fine—If the compassionate individual is not trying to acquire or embody the pain of the other individual. That is what Christ did, not what we feign to do (we are not strong enough).

    And that leads me to another thought. Many western Christians today are acting as through they must become more Christ-like than Christ Himself. They suggest it’s wrong to point out the sins or faithlessness of another. Yet Christ called his followers a perverse and faithless generation when they let unbelief in their hearts (Matthew 17:17). 

    Of course, I’m not suggesting we walk around pointing out sins everywhere. But surely the notion of helping someone in need and correcting what is wrong is not blasphemous behavior. It’s thinking like this that has made such a weak and perverse Christian generation. 

    So you may get to the end of this reading and consider I am heartless. On the contrary, I am full of passion, compassion and a desire to help. So much so that I would rather face the ridicule of the charlatan Christians who weep and wail with their flutes but don’t accomplish anything. 

    And I would encourage you to do the same. Be bold in your faith and words. Change the world. It’s ripe and hungry for change. 

    And for those who consider me to be a tone-deaf microcosm of an echo chamber, I would agree with you that I am tone deaf to faithlessness, and my echo chamber is the Word of God. Not the carnal world or cultural climate. 

    Crave the Word. It is all that we can hold onto. 


  • Between a Playhouse and Office


    I saw a building like a school, church, and historic mansion. Parts of it were like an office. Parts were like a playhouse. Parts were like a horror movie with an elderly monster, a pedophile no less, creeping about. 

    I met with a ragtag group of engineers, performers, and teachers. We were following clues to what we knew would fix this place yet may tear it down. 

    There was a woman there, in our midst—a children’s director—whom many in my ragtag team derided or disliked. In a moment of clarity, I wrapped my arms around the woman and thanked her for always supporting us. Her disposition shifted and she eagerly left us to attend her supervisor—he who was either the pedophile or the showman on stage. 

    In my group, one of the teachers found a clue to our salvation. Before I could read it, the engineer cried, “calling in help!”

    Instantly, several of the actors from the playhouses left their stages, apologetic to leap from their stages in the middle of a show, but committed and excited to help us. They were of all shapes and sizes—some only nine inches tall, others towered over me.

    They gathered round as I read the clues:
    “Look above your medals and awards.”
    “Look beneath the false seat.”

    On the wall between the office and playhouse, near where we hid from the decrepit monster, we found medals hanging on. Above them, a frame with nothing inside. 

    “There!” I shouted, “we should cut through.”

    “And look!” said the teacher. “Where the wood casts an illusion of a seat in the floorboards.”

    “But wait!” said the engineer. “We need more.”

    He called again for help and even more left their stages of acting, running to stand with us and watch. 

    The Children’s Director gathered, too, and though she was frightened to tear the floor up, she agreed that the messages led us here.

    I held high the mallet to strike upon the floorboards. My eyes opened, and I saw no more. 


    The understanding is simple. We stand between a play and office, where terrible sins can occur, hidden behind tradition and an erroneous way of honoring the past. 

    But before we can go tearing up the floors and walls that hold our old trophies and give us a false sense of comfort, we must call in the actors to repent from their stages, and see what the Word says. 

    We must call them from their stages.

    While the Sunday morning routine gets fat and lazy, we, as the Bride, must be that much more active to step out into the world and lead. It needs us to lead as Christ loves us. Our role is not to check a box and fill in a seat for a few hours on a Sunday. Our role is not to simply serve in Kids Church, the Greeter Team, the Coffee Team, or the Worship Team for a few hours a week. But to give our lives, living-sacrifices, every moment of every second to whatever He wants or desires.

    And that is actually less pressure. Not more. Because instead of a mandate by a person to watch one more kid, greet one more person, fill one more cup, or play one more song, instead we are mandated by God to do whatever He asks whenever He asks. 

    Our lives are not meant to be scripted routines and merry-go-rounds of boxes checked. Instead adventures and legends. If we would dare to dream or listen to every Word dripping from His pages and His spirit. Get out of this routine.

    What’s under the floorboards?

    Have we let tradition become a demon, that is robbing the next generation of its intimacy with Christ? That is feeding off the children of God like some disgusting monster? 

    It’s not the Bride that is at fault, She is simply following Her “master” as he leads Her in meaningless directions from a stage. And though some may be frustrated with Her teaching, She must have arms wrapped around Her and reminded that She is valued and loved. Those that act on stage, between a playhouse and office, need to get out of Her way.

    Pray for pastors on stage that may be acting and need to repent. They still have time to jump off the stage, even if it disrupts the show, and gather round to discover what the Word is revealing. There are things to dig up. Things to tear down. And underneath those are the mysteries of Heaven.

    I ask again, what’s under the floorboards of your heart? Is it a miracle? Is it a dead body? Before we can find out, I believe it would be wise for us to give the opportunity for as many of God’s children to gather and see. Call them in. 


  • The New Thing Years


    Well, I knew I would get here at some point, and I’m excited to finally have it published. After 8 months of recording and producing, The New Thing Years album is ready to release. Carlia and I were the worship leaders for The New Thing Youth Church for several years and all along that time we wrote many songs for the students to worship with. This is a compilation of some of those, with a few new ideas added around them.

    I’m excited to have Carlia Alderman, Allyson Goolsby, Sarah Hollis, and Rachel Moore all add their vocals to it–each being TNT worship leaders. Additionally, Sarah adds her piano skills to nearly every song this go around.

    It has been a wonderful trip down memory lane for my wife and me, reliving past songs and reinventing some of their musical anecdotes. Below is some of the history behind each song.


    A New Thing

    I wrote “A New Thing” early in my tenure as TNT’s worship leader. The youth church had incredible songs written from its platform over the years, but never a song that was the backbone of its mission. So I started penning one. It actually all came together during the daily Morning Breath Radio Show. Back then, I produced the radio show and sat alongside Pastor Dan for hours each Thursday morning; in many ways, that was my seminary. I studied the Bible alongside him and another guest and watched the annals of wisdom unearthed. During a recording and reading of Hebrews 12, the lyrics came together, and I wrote the whole song without a guitar or piano at my fingers. I just had the tune in my heart and wrote the chords down on a strip of paper. That night, we put it together as a band and it became a staple of our worship repertoire. The bridge lyrics meant so much to me, and I believe were the backbone of our mission as a generation for Christ, that I made them the weekly intro for my messages after I became the youth pastor. 

    The song itself is militant, purposeful, layered, and chaotic. That describes Gen Z well.


    The Invasion

    This is still one of my favorite songs I’ve ever written, and easily the most for a TNT song. It had a presence to it every time we played it at TNT, camp, or an event. I still remember watching my little girls, then toddlers, dance to it at a spring festival while Animal Face played. Untamed was the first song written that coincided with a camp theme; but this was my first go at it, and I wanted something alarming and anthemic, as if our earth was being invaded and we had nothing to do but enjoy the ride. I’ve always aimed to set a tone and imagery in my lyrics; “fire”, “lights”, “winds”, “waves”, these were all naturalistic images and my hope was to make the listening student recall God’s power when he or she saw such elements. 


    Dance with You

    Daft Punk’s album “R.A.M.” was hot off the presses and I was in love with it. But I couldn’t let myself be swept too far away with a song such as “Get Lucky”. So I started writing my own lyrics to the basic rhythm and took it to Chris Johnson. I remember sitting in his office and coming up with ideas. The chorus was mine, his was the verses, and together we grabbed hold of this ridiculous, arrhythmic bridge—it was impossible for a student to jump properly too, but it made us happy. The adults didn’t seem to grab hold of it very much, but TNT loved it for many years. 

    Sometimes, we just really need to enjoy the groove and be happy.


    I am Brave

    In 2016, I wanted to break away from the annual camp theme song idea, instead bringing a new song that was as bombastic and memorable as any of the rest, but didn’t need the reference to a particular year. I wanted a song that tricked you, starting off slow, moody, and deliberate, before exploding into a wall of relentless sound, and eventually dropped into the most haunting melody and progression we had come up with yet. The song itself is a sequel to The Invasion. What happens after His light comes? Our determination to bring the Gospel to the world, standing in courage and boldness. It is an audible irony, as the words are sung over a haunting melody/progression, a metaphor of our boldness amidst fear. It was fun to introduce the Major 3 chord to Animal Face and watch their wheels turn as we structured it. I think this one will always be loved more by the musician and band than the common listener, but it has powerful lyrics and a great chorus, nonetheless; without fail, it always ended back in worship by the end. What a great song and progression to get lost inside of.


    Untamed

    As we approached Untamed Youth Camp in 2013, I couldn’t shake the idea of a namesake anthem for worship. When I finally put pen to page, the lyrics and melody flowed out simultaneously. I forced myself to stay out of the way, not over complicating the song structure and lyrics. It didn’t have to BE anything but worship. It was simple and repetitive, and (I believe) just what the Holy Spirit wanted. Keith helped me apply chords that remained “simple”, yet compelling. We brought the song to the band, and each musician added their own flair and creativity. What formed was a song I am immensely proud of. Not because of what we did, but because of how His power and wild love are on display— it’s nearly impossible to sing without getting emotional! Nearly 12 years after its debut, it means the world to me to finally have a recording of my favorite song to ever write. I pray that it encourages and challenges your Faith in a God who is bigger, stronger, wilder, and more loving than you could ever imagine. — Carlia


    Fire in my Bones

    Somewhere in the fall of 2014, I had this melody come to mind and it wouldn’t go away. It rattled my soul, and I was sang it constantly. I brought it to TNT, but it was probably too early and too haunting for the group. It felt good, but it didn’t have the legs to keep going, primarily because it wasn’t bombastic enough. I tucked it away and later retrofitted it into a Frankenstein of a song called “Unstoppable” during the next summer camp. But to me, that chorus was never right for that song. About six months ago (2024), I wrote a progression I fell in love with and found the old melody worked perfectly. This is what the song was always meant to be. It’s unlike TNT, but it’s powerful and it’s my heartbeat forever. Fire is in my bones, and it always will be.

    The upright on the recording is over 120 years old out of New York. She still has fire in her bones, even if her strings crackle and pop.


    Campfire Editions:

    Every year, we would go out on our TNT camping trips. They were less about camping or roughing it and more about silly adventurous parties. But each night, we would fall in line to singing worship. That’s what these songs were meant to inspire again. Here on our farm, I like to go up on our hillside and camp alone. I start a fire, listen to the owls and crickets, and sing a few songs to Jesus and the livestock. And without fail, I remember those moments camping with TNT. So I strung together a live sampling of each of the songs we would do at TNT, just like I used to do for the students on those camping trips. Hopefully, it can remind some of those students today that nothing really matters but our worship to our Father, and being in His presence. The woods are a special place to hear from Him. Maybe the best place. 


    Releasing February 27th, 2025. Preorder available here.


  • Madloch Falls


    BOOK ONE: SCHERDAL

    Chapter 3: Madloch Falls

    My Paw always described drowning as the worst, heart-wrenching and agonizing experience one can endure. But something in his manner always had me believing he meant something other than his experience under Madloch Falls. Something greater still that I may never know the fullness of, and pray I won’t. 

    -Fyest Fox, (from the “Articles of a Watrepaue’s Brood”)

    ***

    Slow and methodical; faithful and monotonous. The milky-brown syrup squeezed into the cedar floorboards like the rising tide of the Glaucus Sea; it smeared over each log, drenched the frayed, red bark, and stung Rasicare’s hairy red toes. As sudden as it had come, it slipped back through the raft’s beams, down, down, down, between crack and unknown crevice. His raft rocked and dipped on the rarely turbulent waves. And again, the milky-brown water bubbled through his aged raft. Slow and methodical; faithful and monotonous. Water, beautiful, in constant, endless, necessary motion; an invariable; perfection; faithful; hope defined. He remembered the Rusalki proverb: “If you want to know the Will of the Wisp, get in Its waters.”

    Through the thick, dull firmament, sunlight softened into a wet gray, yellowed blur. Rain held her breath. She would not shower the Scherl yet, as if she were waiting for something—a certain moment to release her storm. Under her budding sky, Rasicare dragged his long paddle across the floor of the river and aimed eastward. 

    The night before, alone in his den, he had wrestled with thoughts of Peter pouring into him. He was confident the harbourduke hadn’t sent a captain to investigate his raft, and it left him turning in bed. It was a nervousness brought first by the ecstatic, nearly noxious, joy of the Wisp, and then suddenly laden with troubled and tossing imaginations about the fishermouse, like one feels after a drunken stupor and having realized they may have spoken too much or laughed too long at an indecent moment the hour before.

    Now, on the Scherl, he ambled upstream, whistling as he passed the outstretched arms of Maidens Forest, thumping his paw in rhythm against the birch-leather satchel on his waist, trying his best to keep his spirit light, though his soul cringed from the premonition that some menace lie ahead. 

    As he rounded the bend nearest the flotsam, he subconsciously lowered his head between his shoulders and became silent. The water had pushed the wreck into the north bank under the protruding roots of an elm; he saw now that the back end had been torn in half, as if smashed by a large boulder or ripped apart like a rice cake by some monstrous greedy paw. 

    He shook his head, frustrated that he hadn’t investigated it substantially the day before. “Leave a job to the H.D.’s like asking a beaver to stop chewing,” he muttered to himself.

    His raft bumped into the bank and he leaped to shore. He dropped to his knees and clawed at the mud and grass. No sign of footprints; only strange long smooth rubbings like those of a mudskipper or walking catfish scaled to massive proportions. The giant salamanders from the Denemoor came to mind, and he shuddered at the thought of one coming this far north. He hadn’t certainty, for the Scherl’s faithful tide erased any confidence, but the pink stain on the tip of those arrowhead stalks may have been the reduced residue of blood. 

    The fox stood, closed his narrow eyes, and sniffed the air for anything unusual. The breeze shifted north-eastward, and he felt the rain would come soon. He watched a flock of chickadees bank over the forest and Scherl, cutting southward over the Oppendale; their chatter was short, pervasive and alert. They had seen something alarming. 

    Taking to the water again, he was careful not to leave sign behind and remain noiseless as he dawdled further upstream. His long paddle dug into the shallow mud and he attempted stealth under the shadow of the brush and cloudy sky. As he rounded the southwest-winding bend, he discerned the guttural moan and muffled yelp of someone ahead. 

    Spurred by compassion, he abandoned his clandestinity, paddled to midstream, and recklessly drove upriver. As the southeast bend came into sight, he stabbed his paddle hard into the water and snagged a root on the bottom, spinning his raft eastward on itself and sending himself flinging north up the next river segment. 

    On the far side of the bend, beneath the fuzzy chaos of a weeping willow and upheaval of the filthy, muddy bank, he saw two unexpected frightful sights. The first, a whitetail, most likely a doe on account of her slender haunch, severed in half at the waist and still flopping in the water wildly from dead nerves firing and flaring. The second was the water-demon itself; a great and monstrous warty skull, writhing in the water and gulping the severed carcass between its long rows of sharp, twisted pearl teeth; its red-slit eyes rolled backward into an opaque purple tint as the water splashed against them and slid the animal carcass down its throat. It was the head of the water-demon; the legend of death; the purveyor of drowned souls; Leviathan.

    A pregnant moment hung in space and time as a worn leaf shakes and shivers before it flutters to the earth. Rasicare stared in awe at the frozen monster’s omnipotence. It noticed his watchful gaze and wiped its teeth clean with a quick flick of the tongue. The massive head flung sideways into the water, submerging completely beneath the brown muck and filth. An explosion of water erupted, spraying the fisherfox and flopping the deer carcass into the underbrush. 

    Rasicare reached into his satchel and pulled a small hollowed-out cattail reed, a boom-stick. He grabbed its dangling string and yanked hard, sending a yellow projectile into the sky that exploded into a shower of red mist. 

    Rasicare leaned on the stern and pitched the bow out of the water; his paddle pummeled the water, and his tail dipped in it, acting as a stiff rudder. He raced upstream, hot on the trail of the V-shaped wave serpentining ahead of him like a spry school of fish. He refused to lose sight of the creature, and his heart thumped in anticipation. 

    Stroke after appalling stroke, he struggled to keep pace as the wave grew further and further from him. He nearly lost hope when the ripple had turned a bend and disappeared completely, but when he rounded the next segment, he caught sight of the trailing water and thrust himself even harder for its heading. In his heart, he knew it was no use; the thing would outrun him eventually, and his exhaustion would spring upon him powerfully. But he needn’t catch the creature, only keep it in sight for a bit longer. 

    The V-shaped wave dissolved again around the next winding turn. Thunder roared, but it was not from the Great Forest above. Hearing the sound of pounding water, he recognized the shortening cypress and thick ambling arrowheads on the southern bank. He laughed in delight as he realized exactly where he was. 

    From there, the river doubled its width before forking. To the southeast, it ran downstream on a straightforward ripple between rollicking hills on the left and the Oppendale’s open prairie on its right. To the north, it traveled upstream to Maiden Loch, filled by the uproarious beauty and maddening velocity of Madloch Falls; the very head and source of the Scherl. 

    The water roared down a drop of two-hundred fifty paws into the loch; a natural basin with depths of eighty mittans, surrounded by rocky enclaves and cliffs two-hundred mittans apart. The fall was believed to be from where the Maiden Jessamere threw herself to save her rabbit-kin from the Hrothhamber Foxes many seasons ago. 

    Fifty mittans ahead, Rasicare watched the V vanish at the midmost point of the loch, and he knew the monster had bedded into its depths. Turning his oar on end, he drove himself to a halt. Like a hummingbird, his chest panted wildly; like a red spoonbill, he hovered over the water, scanning for any disturbance. 

    Presently, he sat on his haunches and cleared his mind of any care whatsoever. He chewed on his paw where a splinter had dug in during his mad flight, watched the zipping warblers, listened to the roaring fall, and drew long, deep breaths with no other concern in the Wood. 

    It were moments like this that his soul felt most aligned and, to him, made the most sense; as if his very nature longed to be on the edge of chaos or deep in the confines of mayhem. Never did he desire such moments in a twisted or maniacal sense, for he, quite naturally sorrowed the tragedy of what in all probability happened to Peter and, of course, what he saw come of the whitetail doe; nonetheless, the unabashed, savage escapade brought with it an undefinable joy and exhilaration that he relished deeply. His spastic tendencies and forgetfulness for what he considered trivial things suddenly dissipated; this becoming him when he understood once more that the Wood did not need him, nor did it matter what happened yesterday or tomorrow, but only that he accomplished this bizarre and abominable task set before him. And here it was before him!—as if spawned by some divine will and fortunate happenstance; it was the promise of that greatness his soul had longed for every morning and night for too many seasons to count. 

    He would not do it alone, though; and even with the help, it would be nigh impossible. Yet already he saw, in his imagination, himself victorious and crowned in its glory. He closed his eyes and drew another long breath through his chest, feeling wind run through his hair, tying not to rock his raft too much, and waited, waited, waited for the storm to fall and his support to arrive.

    At length, he heard a dim, fluttering, foreign whistle, barely discernible, yet squealing high enough in pitch to pique his ear from the fall and back toward the Scherl; he turned obediently. There, floating at the mouth of the loch, the raft of Mutton and Domino, along with Jands in his yellow canoe. 

    They were silent and wisely discerned from Rasicare’s posture that they should themselves paddle smoothly and noiselessly into the loch. Until the three mammals were shored against the fox’s raft, they did not say a word. 

    “What’s a fisherfox to do in Madloch?” The muskrat asked derisively, as if he had saved his little jab for the entirety of his soft paddle forward.

    “Saw the boom-stick,” said Jands, his voice barely audible over the fall. “And what’s left of the whitetail.”

    “I’m sure he’s still here,” whispered Rasicare. 

    Jands nodded his head and scanned the loch from end to end, noting that the blackened sky had skirted away the songbirds and insects into hiding. 

    “It’s Leviathan, mates,” said Rasicare, lowering his voice and receiving the reaction he had hoped for. He smirked at the gaping and uncomfortable fishermates before him.

    “You putting us off?” Mutton gawked.

    “That’s funny. It sounded like you said, ‘Leviathan’.”

    Rasicare’s mouth dropped open, and he panted in ecstasy. “Jands’ll corral the outlet,” said he, pointing at the river fork. “That way, if it makes a run for it, we can stop it.”

    “I don’t think it will,” replied Jands. “Any apex is going to protect its loch. That thing is coming to us. But where it hits is the question.” 

    “I am inclined to agree. But better safe than sorry. Mutton, you jab at the west bank while Domino swims on the east side by the rock wall. I’ll paddle up between the fall and Jessamere’s Rock. That’s where I figure it’s bedding.”

    “You think yore the Watrepaue a’ready, fisherfox?” Mutton asked with a scoff. 

    “No offense to your silly plan, Rascal,” interrupted Domino, with a tone as low as bedrock. “But I ain’t gettin’ my matin’ paws in the water with a breedin’Leviathan.”

    Rasicare hesitated, suddenly unsure of himself. 

    “Take my oar, you chipmunk,” snapped Jands, handing Domino his paddle. “You’d think he’d never swam before. Isn’t that right, Rasicare Watrepaue?” 

    The fox discretely smirked at the otter’s sly flattery and his red hair grew a shade darker. Meanwhile, the beaver stumbled his round, clawed paws into the bow of the canoe. When Jands was sure he was secured and not going to capsize his vessel, he dropped from its side and slipped into the water noiselessly. A few seconds later, his head popped up, and he muttered angrily, “Well, what are you all waiting for? You think I’m swimming for my own delight?” 

    The others separated accordingly; Domino taking the duty of covering the outlet of the loch with Jands’ canoe, while Mutton followed Rasicare’s initial plan to search the west end. Rasicare turned about-face and dabbled the vessel up the loch. 

    Soon, the fall’s misty breeze was blowing across his face and forming droplets on the end of his snout. At his right, the cliff face met the loch’s eastern end. Jands’ bobbing black head and tail surveyed the underwater wall. Rasicare noted that, behind him, Domino had reached the mouth of the loch. He sighed relief knowing the outlet was covered. 

    As Mutton moved into position under the oak and elm branches on the western shore, Rasicare approached Jessamere’s Rock. The rock was a peculiar monument risen from the depths wharleighs ago. It acted as a barrier between the fall’s brutal current and the rest of the loch, creating a calm, yet steady current through the center. On the far side of the rock, water thrashed and wrestled into white-capped breakers, frothing like cream. This was where the fisherfox assumed the beast had harbored itself to bed—a perfect hide shrouded in dangerous waves that no fishermate would think to traverse. Rasicare’s heart thumped into his throat as his raft knocked against the algae-covered island.

    The fall’s waves were relentless, and he questioned his ability to steady the raft past Jessamere’s Rock. He pondered climbing onto it. Perhaps he could see more from a higher perspective and shout to his fishermates for help when he discovered the monster. But that idea produced the possibility of someone else taking down the monster and becoming the Watrepaue. 

    Would Leviathan take bait like any other fish? How could one coax a lion from its den without a proper meal to offer it—and at last, he realized what must be done. A sacrifice, as it were, given to the water-demon with a result that would most assuredly be death to any other animal. But to him—he could already see himself victorious, and it was more than imagination; it was real. Following the vision in his heart, it could only be victory. The Will of the Wisp had called him to this moment. 

    It was apparent that Jessamere’s Rock was useless to him, except to steady his raft for a time. He wedged his oar between a crack in the stone and a corner of the raft, and tightened the pouch around his waist. With a prayer and sigh, he prepared to leap into the waters. Yet, just as he was letting his heart take him into the unknown, about to toss himself into the white riveting water, the Great Forest above bellowed, and the heavy clouds retched their sweet storm onto the Wood below. 

    Like spears and tiny projectiles, the rain streaked across his fur and flicked the surface of the water. Little fountains sprang up everywhere, leaving translucent bulbs in their wake, like glaring haunted eyes emerging from the depths and staring up at him, daring him to venture into the loch’s jaws. The fox hesitated. Already his second time while leading this campaign, and he felt the uncertainty beneath his fur rise. 

    “What are we waiting for?” Mutton shouted from the northwestern shore, ambling down the bank on Rasicare’s left. “Am I coming home soaked from a blimey storm or are you gonna hunt something?”

    Rasicare bowed his head, embarrassed, and tried hard to steady his thoughts. He searched his imagination for the picture of his victory again. It had abandoned him with the rain’s arrival.

    “Fisher-wispin’-fox,” Mutton murmured to himself on the west end of the loch. He ambled up the bank, jabbing his oar into the water and stirring up the bottom soot. “Rubb’ the matin’ dog saw a water-demon.” As the muskrat stroked his paddle once more beneath the surface, the oar was snagged, tot against his paws, and then ripped from his claws. He let out a little yelp and curse before his raft was capsized and flung through the rainy sky.

    “YAAAARGGGGGHHH!” Mutton shouted, flinging paws over head into Maidens Loch.

    A pair of great, yellowed jaws had torn through the port-side of his raft and snapped a third of it into pieces. Several of the logs were in the monster’s mouth, snapping, crushing, biting, ripping, thrashing. Mutton floundered underneath the water in a chaotic myriad of bubbles and foam; behind them, the violent, savage silhouette of the water-demon, writhing and rolling. 

    He flipped his paddle in his paws and removed a walnut cap from its top-end, revealing the sharped point of a spear. Flapping his haunches through the water, he aimed the spear forward, driving it deep into the belly of the creature. He grinned and laughed at the bloody monster, only to immediately feel the flick of the retaliating beast’s tail against his chest and shot out of the water. 

    Phwack! Boom! Thud! 

    He landed haphazardly on the side of his raft, dangling like a rag-doll over its edge, yet somehow still gripping the bloody spear in his paw. 

    Racing from the north end of the loch, Rasicare arrived and jumped to the poor muskrat’s raft. Coughing in a fit, Mutton had trouble rising to his paws. 

    “I’m alright, I’m alright,” he cried, grabbing his side and feeling blood trickle between his paws. 

    The fox kept his eyes up, scanning the surface for movement. The water was an indiscernible mess, saturated with blood and bits of Mutton’s raft, like a macabre oil painting on flotsam. 

    Hopping back to his own raft, he kicked Mutton’s damaged one away toward midstream. 

    “Mutton, get paddling,” he ordered. “It’s heading toward Domino.” 

    The muskrat lifted his eyes to see the steadfast chevron moving away, flecked by harsh rainfall, toward the loch’s mouth. Exasperated, he clenched his paddle and roared like a lion. 

    The two rafts raced side-by-side toward the Scherl, synchronized at last. All prejudice and dispute between the two fishermates had sloughed away. The only rivalry between them now was the instinctual competition to slay the beast first and take back to Scherdal the title of Watrepaue, Hero of the Scherl.

    At the loch outlet, Domino had seen everything that happened, but wisely kept himself steady at his post, refusing to paddle out and help his mate. Now the thing was headed straight for him. He stood erect in Jands’ canoe, paws held high with a cast-net, counting the agonizing milliseconds, forcing upon himself patience, waiting, waiting, and more waiting. The chevron waves rushed toward him, closer, closer, closer to his canoe. One second more, one more second, one more second. 

    He couldn’t wait any longer; fear of missing, fear of being taken under, and fear of waiting too long overtook him. He tossed the net. It flashed across the falling raindrops. Leviathan barreled to its left. Domino shouted in excitement, thinking he had caught the beast. But the net had landed empty. He screamed like a madbeaver when he realized it. The monster had course-corrected back to the middle of the loch. 

    Rasicare, a hair-breadth sooner than Mutton, saw the chevron waves shift; he dragged his paddle on his port-side and flung the raft midstream. Mutton followed, cutting a wide angle nearer the southern end of the loch. He shouted at Domino to follow and the beaver dropped into the canoe and paddled after them. 

    The three vessels spread wide across the loch behind the monster. They were pushing it to the east end, corralling it toward the otter. Far ahead, dancing like a dolphin, Jands leaped and skipped in the frothy water. He was a playful meal flopping for attention—the smart otter had realized, like Rasicare, that they needed bait for the monster. The chevron waves raced toward the bobbing black pelt, and behind it, the three vessels closed in. 

    As the monster sped closer, Jands floated near the rocky cliff, acting as though he hadn’t seen the monster. When it pummeled in, he leaped and skipped up the rock wall, a mere second before the beast snapped its jaws onto him. He ran along the cliff like an acrobat and flipped himself head over paws into the water on Leviathan’s far end. Without adequate time or space to turn, the rampaging monster rammed its powerful head into the wall, cracking the rock and unleashing a volley of collected rain from the clifftop.

    Immediately, the rafts and canoe arrived. Jands leaped from the water and landed alongside Mutton. Domino, with no concern for stopping, drove Jands’ canoe into the wall and cast the net beneath him. It sank over the dazed monster’s jaws, and like a gar caught in a frayed rope, the tangles of reed and rope snagged around Leviathan’s teeth.

    All were pulling, straining, and fighting to hold the monster still, shouting at one another with directions. 

    “Pull there!”

    “Loosen!”

    “On its flank!”

    “Come around the other side of the jaws!”

    “Watch your paws!”

    Hungry to be the Watrepaue, Mutton released his hold of the net and grabbed his spear. He spun the oar between his paws and aimed the sharp point at Leviathan’s head. He lunged forward while the red-slit eyes, cloaked underneath their purple nictitating membrane, glared up at him; a roar erupted. 

    The oar recoiled off the hard skull, and the spearhead snapped off. Its painful vibration brought the muskrat to his knees. 

    “Ahh! Nippin’, matin’, ugly ol’ beast!”

    The water-demon thrashed.

    “Mutton, get back on the net!”

    But it was too late. The ropes frayed and snapped against the sharp teeth. Leviathan submerged instantly, and the fishermates fell back onto their vessels. 

    Quickly, they gathered themselves up and scanned the loch for any disturbance. 

    Mutton threw a spare oar at Jands. “Make yourself useful!”

    Jands caught it and glared at the muskrat. “I won’t forget you lettin’ this thing get away if it does!”

    “Spread out and look for sign!” hollered Rasicare. “Domino, get back to the outlet!”

    The group separated their boats. Rasicare aimed north for Jessamere’s Rock, while Domino raced back to the southern outlet, and Mutton and Jands sailed to the loch’s midpoint. 

    “There!” Domino shouted, pointing toward a small pattern of Vs running south-westward. “It’s heading to the Scherl!” 

    He shot his canoe through the water for the loch mouth. 

    Mutton paddled after him, but Jands questioned the shape and size. “Looks too small and oblong. That’s a school of fish.”

    “School of fish or not, they’re scared by Leviathan running south. Get your paddle in the water and start pushing! That thing’s gonna be in the Scherl and gone in seconds!”

    Jands glanced back to Rasicare, who was shored against Jessamere’s Rock, and too close to the fall to hear them hollering for his help. 

    Braced against the rock, the fox eagerly searched the northwest end of the loch. Scanning round about, he caught sight of Domino racing southward and waving his paws for help. 

    “Yiaark!” he growled in frustration and dropped his foot from the rock. Kicking away, he undocked his raft and pushed against the heavy current. But while watching Domino and company race south, he failed to see Leviathan climbing up the other side of Jessamere’s Rock. 

    Pulling its fat, abhorrent body up over the stone with long, grotesque limbs, the monster bellowed and roared. Before Rasicare had time to react, the beast flung itself onto his raft, blowing it to shrapnel and tackling the fox into the water.

    “Fisherfox!” Mutton screamed.

    “We are coming, Rasicare!” Jands shouted. 

    The muskrat and otter watched in horror. Racing with adrenaline, they stormed to Jessamere’s Rock. Amazingly, Rasicare was somehow back on the surface, flailing in a pitiful dog-paddle through terror and his raft’s splintered remains. 

    The otter and muskrat paddled as hard as they could, shaking their heads and praying to make it in time. 

    As they approached the paddling, terrified fox, they slowed down. Jands extended his paddle for Rasicare. 

    “This is why we don’t let foxes on the river, you matin’ redtail!” Mutton hollered.

    A rush of wind brought the misty, white spray off the fall into Jands’ black and brown eyes. Rasicare reached for the paddle, desperately treading water toward the raft. 

    “Come on! Come on!” 

    Water was rushing down Rasicare’s throat. His mind barely held a thought. All there was left was fear. His black paw reached for the oar. And then he was gone! Snatched from all the Wood and pulled into the depths of the black and blue cavern under a bevy of white-capped waves.

    Jands stood up, taken aback. 

    “RASICARE!” he screamed. 

    His pawstep stuttered, and he stumbled back into Mutton. Neither said a word as they scoured the relentless waves and waited in a nervous pant. Both were tempted to dive in after him, yet held back by the fears of missing the fox’s sudden frenzied chance for help and the dangerous monstrosity waiting under the surface. 

    Rain poured down, and each moment felt like a lifetime. Except for the daunting rain and roaring fall, the loch was calm, without sign. 

    Domino arrived beside them. Driven by confusion and nervousness, he begged to know what had happened. 

    “He’s gone,” Mutton muttered. “No fox can hold his breath that long.”

    ***

    Beneath the water, a deluge of breathlessness and white, bubbling chaos caved in around the fox. The light grew dim, like frail blue rays, parading as dancers in the distant black cavernous hole. 

    All Rasicare knew had become mayhem and pounding, pounding agony. His chest turned inside out, and his stomach convulsed in madness. On top of him, the red-slit eyes stared from beneath their opaque, nictitating membrane. A log, ripped from the fox’s raft, had lodged itself between Leviathan’s teeth; the only thing keeping the monster’s jaws from tearing into his flesh. 

    Under the fall, the water-demon sped, with Rasicare between its mandibles. The monster did not know why it could not crush the fox, but decided to take its meal to the depths of the loch and wedge the drowned body beneath a boulder to wait for decomposition to take hold. 

    Rasicare kicked frantically, but the jaws had fastened tight around his shoulder and thigh. He begged and pleaded within his soul, panicked and persistent in his bounding hope, like a rabbit runs from the gray wolf on the prairie. 

    Floating loosely around his waist was his pouch. It brushed the ends of his claws. His eyes rolled backward. He undid the tie. His paws clutched the filet knife. His wrist spun and the blade cut tooth and gum. A gurgle erupted from Leviathan’s throat and his arm lent free. 

    With eyes sealed shut—though it needn’t matter, for the light had all but disappeared in the abyss—he stabbed pitilessly, maddened by a will to live. Ricochetting off bone and scale, flailing like an upended dog. 

    The knife found its way to the creature’s eye. It dug into the crevice of the nictitating membrane like one digs to open a shut clam; ripping, pulling, driving, until finally, the second eyelid popped loose, and the creature writhed wildly. 

    Round and round, the monster beat at him, ramming its head and jaws into the rocks and boulders lining its hellish cave. But Rasicare would not stop. The knife fit into the eye like it had met mulberry jelly. He dug it deep and twisted frantically. 

    A thought passed through his mind, that he had suddenly crossed from the Wood into the Great Forest. The jaws had released him, and he felt himself floating free. 

    With his last shred of strength, he squirmed from out of the beast’s teeth and kicked toward what he hoped was the surface. 

    Rays of light formed around him, and he then realized his eyes were actually open. Light danced on the surface above, tempting and tormenting him. He was overcome by hopelessness, forever out of reach of the distant air above, one stroke too many away. 

    He kicked and reached for it, praying and begging to have one more beat of air in his crumbling lungs, even if it were his last—but to hold it in his chest and smile in death would be a fit end to a fox not born for the water. Why ever did he come to the river and why ever did he attempt to swim? What sickness drew him to its luster and beauty which hid death and pain beneath its surface? One more stroke. He had one more stroke in him. One more stroke. 

    ***

    “He’s gone,” Mutton muttered to Domino as the beaver arrived. “No fox can hold his breath that long.”

    “Wait a moment longer,” Jands replied, staring into the rambling wake under the crushing fall.

    A spurt of water fountained up behind them, and with it, a meek stir. The three aquatic mammals jostled in disbelief at seeing Rasicare, not twenty strokes away, barely floating on his back and starving for air. 

    The otter was in the water immediately, throwing his arms around the fox. “I’ve got you, mate,” he murmured, holding Rasicare’s head out of the water. “Breathe, mate, breathe.” 

    “Get outten the water, you slickhead!” Mutton shouted. “The beast is coming back!” 

    The muskrat was right. Beneath the otter and fox, a shadow of immense proportion was racing to the surface. 

    But the otter wouldn’t be deterred. He paddled ferociously, concentrated on keeping the fox’s head aloft and his course toward the raft. 

    A flume of water rushed up over his head, and a pair of ugly yellowed jaws lifted into the sky. His heart aflutter and his soul acceded, he prepared himself for the inevitable. 

    But the jaws lie limp, and a milky tongue protruded out of them. The creature was dead. The fox slew Leviathan. 



  • Faerewode


    BOOK ONE: SCHERDAL

    Chapter 2: Faerewode

    My soul feels alive again. I do not understand it, 
    but I do not need to understand the Will of the Wisp. 
    Only to follow and remain. 
    – Rasicare Watrepaue (excerpt from an unconfirmed journal, recovered in the aftermath of the Hroth War and donated by Louie Lynx to the Order of the Ausbury)

    ***

    It seemed as though the entire town had emptied from the West Gate into the forest. Four-hundred animals huddled in bated breath and strained consternation; bulls, bucks, boars, and billies crammed and carrouseled with does, sows, hens and mares of all kinds, sizes, shapes, and colors under the dark, gloomy glaze of a veiled new moon, on the western outskirts of Scherdal, beneath the tendrils of the high and lofty Faerewode Forest, arriving in a desperate riddled hope to see and be seen; to worship and witness. 

    Rasicare was there among them, spurred on by curiosity more than anything, and assumed half of the animals present were like-minded. He couldn’t shake the questions that arose in him since hearing the chipmunk’s story that afternoon. And the idea of sitting at home with only his thoughts to torment him wasn’t to be tolerated. So, swallowing whatever bit of pride he had, he ventured into Faerewode. Even if it were only a hoax, a gag, or trick—he had to know for certain; ever since that night in his father’s den, the burning light had vexed him. He never would have imagined that the chipmunk’s story would have enticed four-hundred Scherdalians to the haunted Faerewode. He glimpsed Mutton and Domino on the far side of a family of mice, smothered between coats and manes. “Duck scat,” Rasicare thought to himself and smirked. 

    “Hello, my friend.” 

    The fox whipped his neck round. The wise, towering profile of an old badger stood beside him; his kind eyes and delicate smile warmed the fox’s heart. 

    “Cornelius!” the fox greeted his mentor, and the two embraced, crammed awkwardly among the thronging animals. “So it’s true—you are here, too. Is the entire Order with you?”

    Cornelius cleared his throat and tilted his head across the forest. About fifty-paws away, a pair of groundhogs were placing a kind of podium and stage on the uneven ground behind a budding bonfire. They worked under the pointed, deliberate stare of a coyote, and were having the hardest time finding a flat enough space that didn’t leave half the stage wobbling and bending under any sort of weight. One of them appeared to have shoved a rock or branch under a foot to stabilize it, and they felt well enough to leave it as is. The coyote turned away, without any bit of gratitude to the groundhogs, grinning and welcoming a very handsome, cunning wolf to the stage. The two conversed quietly back and forth for a lengthy time and Rasicare recognized the wolf as Douglas, the Archbishop of the Order of the Ausbury. He looked as though he were about to give a speech to the animals gathered. Why was Douglas here as if to lead a ceremony? It was odd enough to see his stoic friend Cornelius wrapped up in the hubbub, but even more peculiar that a stage and podium would be purportedly prepared around something altogether spontaneous and unrehearsed. It really must be greater than a mere rumor traveling through the marketplace. Could the Wisp really be here tonight?

    “In all the Sacred Scrolls, the Wisp has never appeared in Faerewode.” Rasicare thought aloud, and he caught Cornelius’ stubborn, uncomfortable glance just in time. 

    “What is it, Rasicare?” Cornelius asked, after relaxing his face back into the soft composure of a mentor.

    Rasicare presumed Cornelius’ waywardness had everything to do with the bustling crowd. He knew likewise that many of these animals would have less-than-holy motivations for gathering. And Cornelius never enjoyed a thronging mob, much less the obsessions of the majority. It was uncomfortable and, as he described it, “a dangerous practice capable of forming anything out of nothing.”

    “My Paw taught me a lot about the history of the Ausbury and the Will of the Wisp,” Rasicare explained, with his eyes fixated on the field mice struggling to keep the fire awake in front of Douglas’ stage. “Wherever the Wisp went, it led to the Ausbury. And wherever the Ausbury was, prosperity flourished.”

    “What are you hunting for?” Cornelius murmured.

    “Why would the Wisp come here?”

    Cornelius recited a proverb robotically, “Who are we to determine where the Will o’ the Wisp goeth or appeareth?”

    “True.” Rasicare’s head nodded, then winced and tilted in slight dismay. “But isn’t Faerewode said to hide the darkness? The Will of the Wisp is to bring light and lead to Its Ausbury. Nothing in all the Sacred Scrolls shows a connection between the Ausbury and Faerewode. I don’t see why something so holy would appear here—”

    Cornelius turned toward him sternly. “Are you to teach a member of the Order of the Ausbury?”

    “No!” Rasicare looked at him, shocked. “But to learn. Why are you here? And why is this happening? Is it possible all the scrolls are wrong?” 

    “Is this because of the Wisp, or because of your Paw?” 

    “Neither,” Rasicare replied, irritated and ashamedly obstinate at his teacher. “And you should know better than to speak lightly of that.” 

    “I never said it was ‘light’.”

    Rasicare sighed, irritated. Calming down, he dropped his shoulders and explained, “Paw believed the Ausbury was hidden in the Denemoor.”

    “That’s a dangerous place.” 

    “He gave his life searching so Scherdal could be whole again.”

    “I never said it was ‘light’,” the badger repeated in quiet resolve, placing his paw on Rasicare’s shoulder.

    “I have no idea what sent him there,” Rasicare continued, as if in a trance. “But he was so sure of it—how could I stop him?” 

    Cornelius took his paw from Rasicare’s shoulder. “Your Paw died believing in something, and believing it could help others. That is a noble death. May we learn to follow his example, yet learn from his mistake as well.” 

    Rasicare squinted his eyes and pursed his lips. His gaze trailed off, and he tried to compose himself, watching the ash rise above the treetops. 

    “And where is Kori on an evening like this?” The badger asked, good-naturedly.

    “Watching her brother’s skulk.” The fox smiled, thinking of cheerful things again. “Her brother and doe-in-law have gone searching for their missing dibbun again. I intend to marry her, Cornelius.”

    The badger placed his strong claw on the fox’s shoulder and smiled. “She will make a fine vixen. And you, a fine tod.”

    The fox smiled briefly before fading into an uncomfortable grimace. “The Wisp knows that I don’t deserve her. We love each other, though. I know I’m not meant to be with any other, but her Paw is not too fond of me. ” 

    “No one likes seeing their pup leave the den, Rasicare,” the badger replied. “Her pack is no different. It will be well.” 

    “I need to get off the Scherl, Cornelius.”

    “We’ve spoken about this, Rasicare. I can’t promise anything.”

    “You know I saw the Wisp when I was young,” Rasicare whispered, concealing his voice from any busybodies.

    “I know what you have told me,” Cornelius answered. 

    “And you know it’s my desire to be a part of the Order.” 

    The badger looked the fox in his heavy eyes. 

    “I know it is my destiny.” 

    “Not all are destined for the Order, Rasicare. And not all should be.”

    His mentor’s hopeless words depressed him.

    Cornelius smiled. “You see that squirrel over there, in that tree? The one higher up, acting as though he isn’t looking this direction.”

    “I see him.”

    “His name is Torlbey. I’ve mentored him for several seasons. He’s quite the musician and leader. But he just informed me that he won’t be meeting with me any longer. He does not need the help of the Order of the Ausbury, now that the Will of the Wisp has been seen again.”

    “That doesn’t make any sense,” Rasicare replied, dumbfounded and disappointed in the squirrel.

    “No, it doesn’t. But don’t worry. He will have a hard time getting away from me.”

    “What do you mean?”

    “The pursuit of a leader is an important trait in those of the Order. We are like Paws more than mentors. And Paws never let their pups get away.”

    “I see.”

    The mates stopped talking, for the Archbishop Douglas was addressing the crowd of animals from the stage behind the roaring bonfire.

    “Animal folk,” Douglas began. “It is an honor to stand with all of you tonight. This night is one I believe we will cherish for many seasons to come. It is not one in which we will recall merely the glory of the Wisp—No, I do not know if It shall appear! But this is a night beyond even that. It is a night to commemorate the faith in our Animal-kin. Look about you! Animals just like you, and yet unique in countless ways. Drawn to this place on a hope. And that hope is a holy thing. What we stand for tonight is the fact that our Animal-kin of Scherdal are still full of trust and belief.” 

    The wolf cleared his throat. His voice rose like an ascending piano, and as he spoke, the scent of honeysuckle came upon the animals. 

    “I know, more than most, that these have been difficult seasons. We have weathered storms, fought battles, and struggled deeply. And no battle has been greater than the one betwixt our ears and beneath our chests. The soul has been attacked!” 

    The wolf paused again, and his deep, black eyes held back tears. 

    “And tonight, I want you to hear from my own jowls—it is okay to hurt, and okay that you have been in pain. It is okay to cry and okay to howl—” 

    Rasicare noticed a nearby opossum had been moved to tears, and a dog howled in the distance.

    “—It is okay that you have wanted to give up. But you don’t have to give up. Look about you. This forest is full because others are just like you. As you know, I have dedicated my life in search of the Ausbury; and by that search, my soul belongs to the Will of the Wisp. Some animals asked me early today, ‘Are you going to Faerewode? Don’t you know it’s haunted?’ 

    “Owwooo! I know that I don’t care what’s called haunted and what’s not—what I care about is where the Will of the Wisp is!” 

    A howl of agreement erupted in the congregation. 

    “I don’t care how close to Faerewode’s ghouls I have to get if I can glimpse the Will of the Wisp. Because the Wisp is greater than all of that, and it can surely direct our paths.” 

    More agreeing howls. 

    “Look among you, animals. What do you see? That you are not alone in this. We stand here tonight under this new moon—a body. A body searching for the Will of the Wisp. And we can gather together always in that—”

    “Glory of the Wisp! I see it!” 

    The bleat and pointed hoof of an elk sent a shock reverberating through the crowd of animals like an invisible shockwave had passed through the forest. Each head jerked in horror, and then sudden relief, to then sudden wonder. Cheers, tears, screams, shouts, and bays were lifting higher and higher into the night sky. There it was! There was no denying it. The Will of the Wisp. The fiery orb, floating in bands of yellow, red and golden flame among the tree trucks and leafless branches; one moment here, and the next thirty paws north, and then ten paws east, pinging and ponging about the forest in silent mystery. Animals everywhere were kneeling and lifting their hooves and paws to the sky. Shouts, howls, and squeals rushed heavenward and the forest held itself like a duckling prepares to swim, wobbling in anticipation and full of ebullient joyful assignment; yet shocked and amazed in a fearful moment of freedom, like the chick who has leapt from her nest a day too early.

    For only a few moments, the light of the Wisp flickered, and then it was gone. A single moan from a desperate mouse lifted over the crowd. But from the way the once-despaired animals now acted, you would have thought the glory had imbued Itself upon them as it did Eorlhart long ago in the Aldamere. Shouts and cries of joy and celebration lifted higher and higher. The animals of Scherdal had found their hope again.

    Rasicare, too, found himself trapped by Its beauty. He had forgotten all of his questions or concerns in a moment. How could he ever doubt the presence? And how could he ever doubt Its power? He felt as though he were sprinting over the top of a mountain pass, and in his paws he carried the Wood, and from his lungs he exhaled the atmosphere. If he wanted, he could leap, and his paws would take him to the stars where he could walk among them and swallow the majesty of the suns and galaxies. He was leaping on an astral plane among the planets and glimpsing all existence from a new perspective. The Great Forest was ahead of him, and nothing mattered anymore. He had seen the Will of the Wisp again.

    It wasn’t until he recognized music playing that he knew he must have been caught in some sort of trance, whether from the power of the Wisp or the ecstasy of the mob. He opened his eyes to see the crowd of animals had dispersed from around him and were celebrating with food and dance. 

    A pair of skillful raccoons had picked up their instruments and were thumping away on lyres, while three opossums blew on flutes, and a pair of beavers slapped their tails on birch-skinned drums. Soon the melodic bleats and howls of elk, cows, and coyotes joined in, and the song chugged and bugged along in a pounding, glorious motion. The whitetails and rabbits danced in a wide, dangerous circle around the fire and stage; one hare joined the mix and leaped over the bounding deer; merry mice danced between their legs in bumbling happiness, like their adolescence had returned to them again. 

    Rasicare watched, and his heart was full. He had heard the legends of joy the Wisp brought with It from his Paw, when growing up; but to see it with his own eyes—the beauty of his animal-kin in dance and song, worshipping and lifting their praise to the Will of the Wisp. A she-beaver next to him was weeping for joy, and he surmised she must be the doe of Henry, who had first glimpsed the Wisp months ago. It was true. It was all true.

    Rasicare, grinning and gleeful, looked up to his mentor and was shocked to see the badger standing stoic and expressionless. Cornelius’ grave face was so despondent it nearly scared the fox. He cocked his head to the side and giggled. “How in the Wood can the old badger never find excitement, even in the presence of the Wisp?” He thought to himself. He shrugged and shook his head, ignoring the badger, and joined in the dance with the she-beaver next to him.

    The blissful dance lasted for an hour; shouts, tears, and new songs echoed throughout the forest, until Archbishop Douglas took to the stage again and held his paws high. The band slowed their tempo and lessened their dynamics. Douglas smiled and you could see the great, beautiful wolf had been crying just as much as the best of them.

    “My brethren,” said he, quietly, and the bustle of animals hushed to a whisper. “I believe this is only the beginning. Something is happening in our midst and it is beautiful. I believe we will see the Will of the Wisp revealed, and soon and very soon, something magnificent will happen to our community. Keep your eye to the Wisp and your ear for Its Whisper. We will find the Ausbury again, and Scherdal will bring Its glory back home.”

    A shout of joy and amazement shook the forest from limb to root.



  • On the Scherl


    BOOK ONE: SCHERDAL

    Chapter 1: On the Scherl

    “If you want to know the Will of the Wisp, get on the water.” 
    – Rusalki, (from “Advent Journies across the Seas”)

    ***

    The autumn sun bled through the branches of elm, poplar, and oak like the strings of an orchestra stretched tight against the forest. Their song was birds and insects bounding and chirruping upon their warm, amber gold canopy. Drifting over the air, like a spider forms her web across the wind in fluttering beauty, the branches hung in bated anticipation, hoping to touch and hold one another’s fingertips. Under their warm, crusty palms, a fat, black and blue river ran.

    The Scherl. Named for her slow, meandering wind through the forests, towns, and open meadows. Her headwaters were deep in the Ettinskelf mountains where from she rumbled down until losing her mind and leaping off Madloch Falls into the midnight blue, tranquil loch below. From there, she split east and west like the very strength of the falls severed her soul. East, she traveled along open meadows and marshes before turning sharply south toward the Rusalki Sea. West, the Scherl traveled in winding, zig-zag patterns through the dense forests until pouring into the Glaucus Sea. 

    It was along this river thread that many of the Town of Scherdal’s animals found their nourishment and livelihood; and here, along the placid, deep waters, a fox paddled his raft in quiet solitude upstream the river. He closed his eyes and listened to the dropping walnuts and persimmons on the river, felt the air under his long red ears, and sniffed the aroma of honey and tea from town a wharleigh away. 

    “Aye, fisher-fox!”

    Rasicare winced at the sound of Mutton’s gritty, bad-tempered voice. He kept his eyes shut so Mutton wouldn’t see them rolling and tried not to raise his shoulders when sighing. The ugly, fat muskrat was making his way upstream the Scherl on his log raft; standing next to him was his fishermate, a beaver named Domino, who was busy steering the stern away from some oncoming debris.

    “You ketch’em any fish yet ‘oday?” hollered Mutton. “Any worth relic’n? Heh heh heeheehee.” Mutton giggled himself into a fit that nearly tipped him from his log raft. He balanced himself unorthodoxly and pointed back to Domino. “Keep it steady, ya flat-tailed ninny.”

    “Weren’t my fault your fat head nearly toppled o’er,” shouted back the beaver.

    “Heh heh heh heeheehee—Aye, fisher-fox! ‘teady up fer us ta dock ‘longside a ya.” 

    The muskrat paddled to Rasicare at the center of the river and dug his claw into the bow of his raft. The rafts notched together and Domino dug his oar into the muddy stream bed to anchor them against the soft current. “Ain’t no reason fer ya’s to be chasin’ off without saysin’ a li’l hello. Heh heh.” 

    “Hello, Mutton,” Rasicare replied, visibly irritated. He turned to the beaver onboard and nodded. “Domino.”

    “‘Ey, Rascal,” the beaver replied and slapped his tail on the deck in a gesture of good faith. “Any luck on the Scherl today?”

    Rasicare looked upstream. “Couple of crappies and pinfish. But nothing worth keeping. I think something’s scaring the big fish off these days.”

    “Prolly your redheaded wherewithal,” said Mutton, who hadn’t lost his grin yet.

    Rasicare smiled sharply. “What about you?” 

    “Some bream and brownies.” The beaver lifted a ribbon of fish from the boat’s starboard. “Worth keeping, but I agree—game is skittish.”

    Mutton sneered, and his face looked rotten and skewed. “Maybay dem ‘roggers from Farnwal got in the water and soiled it upstream. Hate dem, ‘roggers. Can’t trust a blimey, slipperily little frog with your rod, much less your river.” The muskrat spat in repugnance and to Rasicare’s amazement, the disgusting projectile flew thirty paws across the Scherl.

    “It weren’t no frogs, you water-rat!” A voice shouted from the southern bay.

    “Aye! Who dat? Who daren’t calls me dat?!” 

    Out from behind a dammed up partition of stuck branches and brush, a spry otter flicked his head into view. His face was cockeyed, and he grinned like a fired up salesmate. “I did!” He shouted. “And I’ll do it again, water-rat. You’re out here shouting and blubbering like a rock dove; there’s no wonder I can’t catch a measly meal. Call on the Wisp! You are a pitiful sight to see on a beautiful river-run day.” 

    Rasicare smirked and breathed a little easier to have Jands in his company when surrounded by such imbeciles as Mutton and Domino. 

    “Oi!” shouted Domino, giving his due respect to the better fishermate. “Didn’t see you over there, Jands. We weren’t to be so loud—”

    “So loud!” shouted Jands, not through with his verbal abuse. “You mean so loud to harass and irritate a poor fool fox like Rasicare out here on the river?” His voice was so deafening that Rasicare wondered if someone could hear it all the way back in town. He cringed. “Ain’t his fault he’s terrible at fishing,” Jands continued. “What you got—four webbed claws and a flat rear to cut through the water? Pardon me, Rasicare. Just need to put these blasted nincompoops in their rightful places at the bottom of the food chain.”

    “Aye, nuff a dat, Jands,” shouted Mutton. “We’s all jus’ havin’ a friendly talk out on da Scherl.”

    Jands paddled out from behind the floating partition and revealed his pristine pine-yellow canoe. In a few quick strokes, he was docked against the two log rafts. He lowered his voice finally, drifting back into the smooth demeanor he reserved for fishing. 

    “The fish are disappearing,” he whispered. “Started up about a fortnight ago, but been getting worse since. I reckon something is going on upriver to deter them. Maybe something big hunting like Rasicare suggested.”

    “I’m tellin’ ya’s,” Mutton muttered. “It’s dem ‘roggers in Farnwal.” 

    Rasicare found his voice again. “What did a frog ever do to you?” he snarled.

    “Aye, one of dem done bite my GrandPaw on the leg and ‘eerily drown’d him in the Little Fern when I was but a bitty pup.”

    Rasicare shook his head and smirked. “Everyone’s heard that ol’ tale about so and so’s GrandPaw.” 

    “Serve’s your GrandPaw right, Mutton,” Jands butt-in resolutely. “He shouldn’t be swimming down in the Little Fern anyway. And you never stopped being a bitty, water-rat.” 

    Rasicare’s mouth dropped and panted, something he carelessly did when excited. Realizing it, he awkwardly closed it and smiled sheepishly. 

    Mutton bowed his chest out. “Water you grinnin’ at, fisher-fox?”

    The fox collected himself and leaned back on his paddle. He hadn’t any desire for a fight; any sensible animal knew that Mutton wouldn’t stand a chance against a fox, but the water beneath their boats gave the muskrat an exceeding advantage. 

    “Careful mate, Rascal’s been called,” warned Domino the beaver sarcastically, shaking his paws in short frantic motions and staring wide-eyed like a clown.

    “‘im?! He’s been called by the Will o’ the Wisp?”

    “He told my sister thatta season ago. When he was real little, alone with his Paw.” 

    Mutton, realizing his upper paw over the fox, found himself giggling again. “Heh-heh-hehehe! Whoever ‘eard a fox that did somethin’ good? Called by the Will o’ the Wisp—what a buncha duck scat dat is!” The muskrat spat a heaping arch of saliva onto the bank. “I says tha ol’ doe’s-tale is just dem fireflies flickern a’ noight. And anybeast’s ‘at sees ‘em is jus’ lookin’ for a reason t’ matter.” He glared at the fox, menacingly. “How is your ol’ Paw anyways, fisherfox?” 

    Domino, who wasn’t the sharpest to recognize hyperbole, butt-in. “Oi, you thing da Willa da Wisp ain’t real? What ‘bouts that Eorlhart? What you say aboutten him?”

    “Pfft! Eorlhar’!” said Mutton. “‘at buck is all show. Ain’t none ‘at cavalier. I says the whole Order is corrupt. Nuttin’ but a buncha thie’es and charlatans.”

    “Careful, Mutton,” cautioned Jands. “You’re fishing for everything but on this river. Go in for the night.”

    “Bah!” Mutton swiped his claws at midair. “Go crack a clam, Jands.” 

    The otter grinned and winked at Rasicare playfully. “You stay up too late again, bitty water-rat?”

    Mutton kicked the bow board from under him and Rasicare’s raft spun haphazardly around toward the northern bank. Mutton giggled and sang as he spun his toward the south side of the Scherl.

    “Oh, there once was a fox who thought he could fish, 

    but all he did was look like dis—” 

    The muskrat danced like a fool on the raft, sticking his nose out and extending two claws up over his head like ears. He flicked his rod and cast the line across Jands’ stern. The otter shook his head and dipped his paddle into the water. In a few strokes, he was past the other rafts and soaring down the Scherl toward town. 

    Rasicare ignored the imbecile on the opposite bank and slowly pushed himself against the current east, hearing the raucous wailing of Mutton and Domino as he went.

    “A fox on the sea, that nobodied see’d,
    Hoping and a-wishin’, he’d catch just a smidgeon. 
    But e’s a tod ‘at can’t fish, like ‘is paws cannit swim,
    I hope ‘e trips and finally drowns, just like that Frenrick, the ugly clown!
    Heh heh heeheeheehee!”

    ***

    A thousand mittans up river, Rasicare was good and far from the foolish wailings of the fishermates, blocked by banks and branches on the winding Scherl. He spotted an unfamiliar embankment that he aimed his paddle toward, hoping to discover a school of trout hiding under her. As he approached, he saw it was not a natural rock formation, but a strange apparatus in the bubbling water. 

    The current rushed like foam, peculiar for the usually, slow drizzling Scherl. Rasicare pushed his raft as near as he could, but the current kept shoving him away. He aimed his raft at the north shore and grabbed hold of an overarching oak limb that he used to pull upstream around the strange object. As the raft closed in, the dammed apparatus violently buckled and kicked, as if something underneath it had lifted and let it splash down onto the rocks. 

    He plainly saw it now as the dilapidated remains of a fellow fishermate’s raft; a field mouse named Peter, whom he knew fairly well. It had smashed to bits, and large chunks of flotsam floated toward him. He surmised its sudden buckling came from the water, having been too much for the vessel. But where was Peter? It was very unlike the mouse to leave his raft unattended. 

    It had been at least a day since he saw the mouse on the water. Shouting over the bristling leaves and windy autumn rush, he waited several minutes for a reply. He paddled eastward another hundred mittans and began to feel both despondent and foolish; how long could he search for something while not knowing if it were worthwhile searching? 

    Perhaps Peter crashed on an embankment of rocks and had scurried himself back to town through Maidens Forest. That, of course, made the most logical sense. Peter was a good swimmer and no fishermate, as far as Rasicare knew, had ever drowned on the Scherl. But a part of him worried what would happen if he left the area. If Peter was in trouble, might he be just round the next bend, and he close to helping? But with every stroke of his paddle, and answerless response to his cries, he realized this was less and less likely. Was he helping anything at all by sitting here on his raft? If in any danger, the field mouse was more likely to find it traipsing through Maidens Forest and not on the calm Scherl. He glanced down at his string of middling fish floating in the river; they appeared wasted and lifeless. After one last shout for Peter, he turned back to town.

    He floated downstream, and eventually felt better about returning to town, as one does after abandoning an open-ended mystery. He could commit a pack of better qualified animals to search for Peter. Soon this thought dissipated further into a natural belief that Peter must be home with his doe, with paws up in front of the fire, telling her about his poor luck crashing his raft and she reprimanding him for it. He laughed at the notion that he was ever concerned for Peter; the fishermouse was far better on the water than himself. Though he still intended on reporting the wrecked vessel, he knew it wasn’t worth getting anxious about. 

    After several nautical wharleighs filed beneath his raft, he pulled into the Scherldock. The lengthy wooden pier, nestled under rolling canvas roofs between timeworn cypress trunks, harbouring the unique and bizarre vessels of the town’s fishermates; rafts, canoes, skiffs, dinghies, and pontoons for any dog, mouse, or otter along the Scherl. At the end of the easternmost dock, with his paws dangling in the water and his head against a pylon, was a distinguished, albeit bored rat whom Rasicare could never remember the name of, but always held a dislike for, on account of the rat’s bizarre approach to life and his undeserved title of harbourduke. 

    “Good morning…er—H.D.,” Rasicare said, fuddling his welcome as he pulled his rafter under a canvas roof alongside Jands’ vacant canoe. 

    The harbourduke didn’t look his direction. “Do you ever watch the clouds on the water like waves within waves that could be everything? Pretty powerful stuff, dog.”

    Rasicare ignored the harbourduke’s odd soliloquy, trying to remain hospitable. “H.D., I need to report something on the water.”

    “Could be the meaning of life, fox,” the harbourduke said, finally looking Rasicare’s direction. 

    “About three wharleighs north, I discovered Peter’s raft. Have you seen him on the Scherldock today?” 

    “Which one’s Peter?” 

    “Peter! Peter—this tall, a field mouse, rolls out five days a week, usually on the east end fishing bream and walleye.”

    “Why do we even have names, fox? You know we are all just a speck here and a speck there, gone one day and floating in the sun’s rays until another morning takes us away…” The harbourduke trailed off and his mouth fell open in nonchalance; his eyes glazed over and his head bobbed up and down like the rippling water moving downstream. 

    “Harbourduke! I’m here to report the absence of Fishermate Peter and his wrecked vessel!” 

    “Ow, dog! Stop shoutin’ at me.” 

    “Can you send a fresh captain up the Scherl to investigate?” 

    “Yeah, yeah, fox, I’ll send a cap—just stop yellin’ at me.”

    Rasicare winced and pulled his stringer over his shoulder. He made his way up the Scherldock, away from the harbourduke who stared into oblivion while philosophizing about butterflies and their effect on autumn’s flowery kiss.

    The dock ended at a flight of stairs, made both from stone masonry and the wooden planks that had replaced those ancient steps that time had worn away. 

    At its peak was the town of Scherdal; a bustling community founded on the rolling hills and treetop valleys of the Scherl that gathered its source of industry from the rich river run, dark hearty lumber, and deep sterling silver within its caves. Linked to the northernmost edge of the Scherldock was a thriving marketplace, Obadiah Square, outstretching its rumbling hubbub through the Suthe Province; full of opossum selling produce, flamingoes squawking about cheap jewelry, a skunk spraying perfume samples over her bizarre den-made candles, jittering sparrows with custom dresses, a squirrel selling healthy nuts from her healthy hut, and a family of foreign wild dogs that had moved to Scherdal recently and gave a whole new meaning to the term: flea market. 

    Overlooking Obadiah Square, at the top of the sloping hill, was a downtown boulevard equipped with an abandoned theatre, moss-stained community center that strictly attracted elderly mice, and a bedraggled library with an ironically loud goose as its librarian. Main Street meandered north by northwest, lined with groceries, paw’n’shops, parlours, apartments, silver quarries, lumberyards, and the old Scherdally—a hotel carved out of the towering trunk of a tereboak tree that some traveling-weasel had convinced the townsanimals to build as a means to accommodate the touring visitors venturing to see the Will of the Wisp; only the tourists never came, and now the hotel remained as converted apartments for the lower-income fishermates and lumberdogs in town. 

    Tumbling west, downhill over the once beautiful Scherldowns, was the West Province; a land which in the last four seasons had been uprooted and surrounded by iron bars and high brick walls. Inside was the new construction of a prim community of symmetrical dens and hutches with little room to roam, but countless places to hibernate; each with their own heated nests, automatic nut-collector, vanity, porcelain fireplace, stocked root cellar, and miniature fishery so the flock never had to leave home to forage or hunt. 

    Across town, the East Province was mostly abandoned except for the odd farmer or fisher who couldn’t let go of their heritage even after nature had given up on it. Its trees were nothing but hollow logs, and its dens were moss-stained dilapidated boulders; but the artist still found beauty in its quiet repose and calm sway under the wind’s sway from Maidens Forest. 

    Seated above it all, surrounded by a rock wall that kept the secrets and legends of Scherdal’s history and stewardship, was King Dante’s castle, the King’s Ransom; only his servants and the Order of the Ausbury ever had leave to see inside his vast, dark walls. 

    However, the eye was not drawn to the king’s castle, but beyond it to the ruin of the Aldamere; a magnificent cylindrical tower that looked too thin for its height, bizarrely out of place in a meadow covered in the dried remains of clover, false-strawberry, and crownbeard, on the northern outskirts of the city, connected to the castle by a portion of the wall, yet left in disrepair since its demise. Its broken and rubbled side loomed above the city like a crow watching her hunting grounds; hermitic, ominous, and glorious. Every animal in Scherdal could see its topmost balustrades and finials, from the treehouses in the East Province, to the cookie-cutter huts in the West, and even from the smelly, flea-ridden bustle of the marketplace and Scherldock in the Suthe Province by the river.

    Under its distant complacent gaze, Rasicare stepped off the Scherldock’s stairway and maneuvered through a family of browsing moles at market. Opposite the commons, where families, shoppers, browsers, and pickpockets gathered under the open sun, amid the damp, cool breeze of the Obadiah Fountain, he dropped his stringer of fishes on the table of a very obese, clean-shaven, and well-to-do pig whose head was bent over and eyes closely examining the eclectic coins of a recent purchase. The pig chewed on the soaked and piddly end of a very used cigarette.

    “What ‘m I s’posed to do with this? Ooinque!” the pig asked, with only a brief glance at the stringer of speckled crappies and striped yellow pinfish before he continued counting and sorting his coins.

    “It’s my haul for the day,” answered the fisherfox. 

    “Ooinque! A haul?” the pig mocked, looking up and grinning like a swindler. His cigarette twisted and spun on his lip about to drip ash and saliva on to the desperate crappie. “This is yes’erday’s lef’overs. I’ll take ‘m off yer paws to feed my garden. But ‘m not payin’ fer ‘em.”

    “You don’t have a garden, Sam,” Rasicare retorted. 

    “You thank ‘m payin’ fer dead minnows. Who gonna buy ‘em ferm ‘e, fox? Ooinque!” 

    “I got a bit distracted on the Scherl,” said Rasicare. “Look! They are still breathing and good.” 

    “Read my sign, fox—Feresh Fishes! I ’n’t sellin’ this. And you’s in’t selling a’ me.” 

    The pig resumed his examination of his coin collection and altogether ignored the fox and his fish stringer. 

    Rasicare dropped his head in dramatic frustration and pulled the fish over his shoulder. He glanced at a young chipmunk who was staring up at him, presumably observing the whole exchange. “You wanna buy some fish?” Rasicare asked ironically. 

    Embarrassed, the chipmunk scurried away; Rasicare watched him jump into his Maw’s arms, who was sitting on the wall of the market fountain, deeply engaged with a she-beaver. He followed the pup in a glazed, meandering fashion, unaware of his unconscious action. The fountain’s misty water spritzed his long red hair as he sat on the fountain wall beneath the shadow of Father Obadiah’s statue blessing a group of sweet stone rabbit kittens. A few paws away were the beaver and chipmunk in noisy conversation. He closed his eyes, put his snout between his paws, and before he knew it, was unintentionally engrossed in eavesdropping on them.

    “Well, what was it?” The she-beaver nudged her scatterbrained chipmunk friend back into the story she had dropped along the way of conversation.

    “Oh, right,” the chipmunk answered, jerked back into her gossip. “Well, about two months ago, her buck Henry was out in Faereton—”

    “Oh, that sounds about right.” The beaver shrugged and rolled her eyes.

    “Oh, I know,” the chipmunk replied, already distracted again. “I can’t even begin to wonder what the old beaver is doing out there.”

    “Is it gambling?”

    “It could be anything! 

    “…maybe even something with the Sisterhood.”

    “Oh stop! He wouldn’t be out there in all that.”

    “So what happened to him?”

    “Tck tck tck. So he’s coming back from Faereton and gets lost in the Faerewode.” 

    “Oh!” the she-beaver interrupted again, all-knowingly. “So he was drinking at the port.”

    “Probably,” said the chipmunk, dropping her pup again to run away through the paws of the patrons. “But while he’s bumbling around—he bumps into some big oak and hears some strange noises…” Her eyes grew big, like her story-telling mattered. “…Shuffling in the bushes. Well, he calls out—”

    “Is it the Sisterhood?”

    “Hush! Stop interrupting.”

    “You know they are out there.”

    “Stop! So he calls out for anybeast and not a soul answers. Then, he starts back on what he thinks is the path and wouldn’t you know it—”

    “What?”

    “He sees it.”

    “Sees what?”

    “Sees it. —Bernie, stop jumping on other animals!”

    “I’m not following.”

    “He sees it. It-it.”

    The she-beaver stared blankly at her chipmunk friend.

    The chipmunk sighed, and then, oozing in mystification, she whispered, “The Will of the Wisp…” 

    “No!” the beaver shouted in mock disbelief.

    “Yes!” the chipmunk squealed.

    “Nobeast has seen It for dozens of seasons.”

    “Well, Henry the beaver did.” The chipmunk crossed her little arms proudly.

    “And you believe him?”

    “He came back to the den in a fit and furry, all blustering and blubbering and told Sherry everything.”

    “I don’t believe it.”

    “Well, why would a buck tell his doe that he’s been down in Faereton?—unless, it’s for real.”

    “That’s a strong point.”

    “Not a strong point—the only point! Henry saw the Will of the Wisp.”

    “Well, what did it do?”

    “He doesn’t say. He got so frightened and confused that he just took off running until he fell out of the forest an hour later. But listen, the story gets better.”

    “How?”

    “Well, it started going around. All these animals in the West Province spreading rumors like hens in a coop, and then wouldn’t you believe—a cat, a month later, shows up in town and says, ‘I saw the Will of the Wisp.’”

    “No!” The beaver held a paw up to her mouth.

    “Oh yes! And she says it spoke to her. Told her to come find it again.”

    “So she was ‘called’?”

    “Well, I don’t know if you should call it that. But It told her to tell others that It would be back during the next new moon.”

    “My goodness.”

    “And guess what tonight is…”

    The beaver shrieked at the realization and threw her paws over her mouth. “The new moon!”

    “It’s the talk of the town. I can’t believe you haven’t heard of it yet. You really need to get over to the West Province more often. Get out of that nasty old apartment in the Scherdally.”

    “We are trying. Francis is hoping for a promotion next spring at the quarry.”

    “Oh, right,” said the chipmunk with obvious disdain.

    The she-beaver curled her lips awkwardly and shifted the conversation back. “Well, is anybeast going to Faerewode to see if it comes back?”

    “Oh, of course! I should have told you. Yes! All the West Province is going, I’m sure. And word keeps spreading through the rest of the city. Get this—the Order of the Ausbury is supposed to be there. Tell me that isn’t a sign it’s for real.”

    Rasicare leaned closer, ashamed for eavesdropping, but incredibly intrigued. He couldn’t keep silent any longer. “Excuse me,” he interrupted and cleared his throat. “The Order of the Ausbury is going into Faerewode to search for the Will of the Wisp?” 

    The chipmunk and beaver turned, irritated by the rude intrusion. “She says her friend’s buck saw it two months ago during the new moon.”

    “But in Faerewode?” Rasicare asked skeptically. “That doesn’t make sense. The Will of the Wisp wouldn’t be in Faerewode.” 

    “Tck tck tck! Who are you—a Brethren of the Order?” The chipmunk cocked her head and stuck her lips out.

    “Ha! A dingy fox, a part of the Order!” The beaver mocked.

    “Ow!” Rasicare spun around to discover the pup had climbed the fountain wall behind him and had just planted his shoed paw into his hip; his tongue was sticking out at him. 

    “Bernie!” the chipmunk mother shouted past Rasicare. “Don’t kick homeless animals! Come here—no, Bernie, wait, no, don’t run through that sow’s dress. Come back. BERNIE!” 

    Rubbing his hip, and flopping his dead fish over his shoulder, Rasicare left the beaver and chipmunk who were now busy chasing Bernie through Obadiah Square. 

    Could it be true? How could it be true? A wandering beaver had seen the Will of the Wisp in a paltry, dim night, deep within the Faerewode. No eye had seen the Wisp for a generation. A rare happening that once never was; merely a myth passed along from generations hence by Paws and Maws. And none had heard its whisper since the Aldamere’s destruction. Well, almost none. He shrugged his shoulders and shook his head. What could this mean? Was Scherdal’s glory returning? —But why in the Faerewode? 



  • Home Sweet Home


    Home Sweet Home

    Chapter 22

    Late afternoon came with a cool breeze and lovely spirit over the mountain. The pleasing opera of thrushes, cardinals, warblers, and wrens echoed in the forest. Wind swept inside the crown of the canopy and sent a shower of leaves below. In the distance, a crow’s caw faded away, and a woodpecker cackled under the sound of cicadas singing to the sun. A mile over the forest, clouds bellowed and an eagle chirped while she soared with them. A chipmunk tip-toed through the grassy downs that waved goodbye in the wind. 

    The children had a hard time keeping themselves from skipping the entire way back, slowing only to lug up the steep mountain passes or along the shelf over Dark Canyon. Their spirits were high. They felt like experts of the forest, passing on the same footpath numerous times. By the time they reached the summit over Weeper’s Run, they raced each other down the steep side, bouncing off tree trunks and sliding on wet leaves, laughing and screaming. With their victory behind them, they let nothing out but joy and silliness. 

    On the far side of Long Creek, they stopped their frolic when they heard the two urgent cries of their parents through the trees. “Marian! Esther! Herbert!”

    “Mom and Dad,” Marian gasped.

    Humble responsibility fell on them like a cinder block, and each tucked their head between their shoulders and sprinted over the hill to the gate entrance. None of them said a word, but each felt an uncomfortable sensation in the pit of their stomachs; one like you get when you know your parent is unhappy, but you must go to them, regardless.

    They heard their parent’s speaking to one another on the far side of a silver maple. “Oh, Jesus, thank you—I can hear footsteps,” Mrs. Dolor said. 

    “There!” Mr. Dolor shouted. 

    The children saw two blurred figures through the tree-line racing toward them.

    “Marian! Esther! Herbert!” Mrs. Dolor shouted with anger. “I cannot believe you would leave again without saying a word! After we just talked about this. I have been so worried—sick with fear! And Marian—you know better than—Hello, is this your friend Aaron?”

    All this Mrs. Dolor blurted out between hugging and kissing the Dolor children. It delighted both she and Mr. Dolor so much to find all of them safe and sound that they forgot about how angry they were a moment ago. 

    “Kids,” Mr. Dolor said sternly. “You know better than to leave without saying anything. You did this yesterday, and came back bloody and muddy. I’m glad you are all okay, but not again—do you understand? One of you may have gotten hurt out there.” 

    “Yes, sir,” the three avowed.

    “My God—what is that!” Mr. Dolor shouted. For the earth was shaking under the family’s feet, and the children wondered if Maushop had returned. But it was the gate rattling and rumbling as it slowly closed the left side, and then the right side, like an invisible hand were shutting it behind them.

    “Wow!” Mrs. Dolor said. 

    “How did—?” Mr. Dolor questioned.

    “Is it automatic?” 

    “Some kind of motion sensor.” 

    Meanwhile, Herbert slowly backed away from the group, before dropping to his knees behind a rhododendron on the side of the gate’s right pillar. He ran his fingers along the bottom, feeling for the familiar shape of the eight-point star. 

    A strange sound came from the shadows, and for a moment, he thought the bush had whispered or sneezed at him. He stared into the web of dark leaves, but chuckled at how silly that would be. 

    His fingers found the hole at the bottom of the wall and he placed the new cougar figurine David Crockett had given him; just as he had instructed. The thing fit snugly and wouldn’t budge after snapping in place.

    He dropped out of the rhododendron and jumped to his feet, just in time to receive a hug from Aaron on his way home. 

    “See ye’ns at a-bus stop, Monday,” Aaron said to the others, and picked up his bike.

    The next few weeks went by with little significance. There were no more sightings of Tsul ‘Kalu, the unicorn, or the creepy Mr. Dauer. Mr. Dolor was even at home more and the family’s movie-nights and board-games returned. Life became simpler and less remarkable, which the children did not mind at all. 

    Although, one remarkable thing happened, and that was now Aaron spent a lot more time with the Dolors at school and home. And he even went back to his cousin Vinnie to apologize for tricking him. Vinnie forgave him with little effort; apparently, he had always known Aaron had faked the photo, and it had hardly consumed his thoughts anymore, ever since he started looking for new photos of strange beasts. 

    The children liked Lanier Elementary a lot more now. Marian’s teacher recognized her as the brightest in the class and often asked for her help during study-hour. The girls in Esther’s class loved the immaculate marigold she wore in her pigtails. And no one dared make fun of Herbert for any reason, or they had to answer to Aaron. 

    One Friday afternoon, the children reminisced about their funniest stories in the forest, sitting at the kitchen table while Mrs. Dolor made dinner.

    “Remember the way Herbert looked riding on Aaron’s back in the cave, with his glasses down around his face?” Marian laughed.

    “Yeah, he looked like a goofy cartoon,” Esther jeered. 

    “I almost died!” Herbert shouted, laughing through his milk at them. “And what about Esther drooling all over herself on Balaam’s back. Oh, I’m so injured…oh, my  leg might fall off.” 

    “That never happened, Herbert.” Esther rolled her eyes at him. “But, for real, nothing was as funny as when Marian tripped in the thicket in Fool’s Pass and got her butt stuck in that gopher tortoise’s hole!” Esther cackled. 

    “Balaam had to pull you out with his tail!” Herbert shouted. 

    All three roared with laughter. 

    “What are you three talking about?” Mrs. Dolor asked while stirring a pot of spaghetti. 

    “Nothing,” Marian said, and noticed six plates at the dinner table.  

    “I remember having fun,” said Herbert.

    “I did too,” Esther smiled.

    “Oh! And ice-cream at Mr. Mewbourn’s.”

    “We need to go see him again!”

    “And the new treehouse!”

    Just then, the front door opened and scraped the wooden floorboards. The children cheered, “Daddy!” 

    Mr. Dolor stepped through the threshold with his hands full of boxes, bags, and papers. He was sopping wet from the storm outside.

    “What’s all that, dear?” Mrs. Dolor asked.

    Mr. Dolor dropped the things on the floor with a loud bang. “I told you already, honey,” he huffed and puffed. “I’m thrilled about the direction our business is headed. New real estate. New banking partners. New opportunities—oh good, you made a spot for him at the table. Kids, my boss will be staying with us for a little bit until we get it all figured out.” 

    The children’s eyes widened when they watched the heavy footfalls of Professor Ludwig Wolfgang entering their home. He stood in the foyer, dressed in a black trench coat, water dripping from his black fedora. 

    “Living with us?” Marian asked, shocked.

    “Ah,” Professor Ludwig Wolfgang sighed. “Home sweet home.”


  • The End of the Beginning


    The End of the Beginning

    Chapter 21

    The field sighed in relief, the wild animals crept out into the sunlight again, and all became calm. A blue mist fell from the sky, smelling like lavender and honey, and draped across the Field of Atagahi. The children backed away from the mysterious cloud before recognizing its strange formations gathering into the glow of the Ghost of David Crockett. 

    “You’re back!” Marian shouted in excitement. 

    Noya perked up from Herbert’s shoulder and flew to David Crockett, dancing and spinning around him like a jubilant firefly. 

    “Shiyo asiwu, yunwi-tsunsdi,” said he to the faerie. 

    Then the Ghost turned to the children. “I ne’er departed, Marian,” he replied. “You only failed t’ see me. ’Twas there alongside when the storm nearly pushed you from the cliff, Herbert. ’Twas I whom called Noya t’ your side in the cave of the Uktena. ’Twas I whom led Balaam t’ you in Merry-Hollow. And I stood among you here, when you thought you ‘ad first failed. But you ‘ad merely forgotten the thing you needed back at the start. I’m very proud, Herbert.” (Here he looked Herbert in the eyes.) “You spoke the truth, and that takes a bit of integrity, I know. For I as a young lad your age would not ‘ave done such a thing. I beg to believe great things are ‘head you, young man.” 

    Herbert smiled, sheepishly. “Thank you.”

    “Can you please tell us what is going on now?” Marian asked. “We are here. We did what we think you wanted us to do.”

    “Why is your grave here?” Esther asked.

    “What-all theys Arm’ of Bones and Maushop?” Aaron butt-in.

    “Where did they go?” Herbert added.

    David Crockett smiled. “Maushop and the Nunnehi are a tale for another moment,” he replied. “Alas, I will tell ‘bout this spring and how I come t’ be h’re in this manner. 

    “Jim Bowie was sick; poisoned. And I in a desp’ration to heal him. He and I ‘greed Atagahi must be discov’red; in it lie the only way t’ cure him. I left him w’th the Cherokee, and ventured forth ‘lone. On the second day heading northeast, I came ‘pon the River Pactolus. On the following midday, I discov’red Atagahi; she glimm’red as beautiful as she rests ‘oday. But I was not ‘lone. A vile battle broke afore me; the Army of Bones and the Nunnehi fought, for wh’t, I dins’t know ’t the time. I was mortally wound’d, and a’ my last breath when the Yunwi-Tsunsdi—like my friend Noya, ‘ere—bade the Nunnehi lower me ’n-to the still waters. I was saved, but not ’s a man ‘ny long’r. The wound w’s not one any healing can ret’rn t’its nat’ral state. Eternity ran through my spir’t, and my blood and bones fell away. And from thence, I und’rstood the end from the beginning, and w’th it the need t’ protect such a mon’ment as this.”

    “Why keep it a secret?” Marian asked. 

    “There is a belief in someth’ng we call the Convergence. ’Tis the belief that when the power and promise of the past converge, we shall see great pain. And with that pain, salvation. There are those whom b’lieve the Convergence is ‘pon us. And this place—Atagahi—’s not meant for th’se who pierce with pois’ned spears, or th’se that serve the ones who do.” David Crockett looked across the shimmering lake. “’Tis meant for something grander.”

    “Why were the skeletons and Nunnehi fighting?” asked Herbert.

    David Crockett smiled at the young boy. “Those words are yet t’ be told.” 

    “Why did we have to come here?” Esther asked. “Couldn’t you have closed the gate at any time?”

    “Unfortunately, no, Miss Esther,” replied the Ghost. “Once ’twas broken, Maushop knew ‘is place t’ guard th’s Lake. He was und’r the strictest of ord’rs t’ move for naught, even unto me. For only those who bring ‘is little people back were worthy for him t’ move. Sadly, with Maushop a’ the Lake, the Yunwi-Tsunsdi would no longer ‘ave a home, and their abs’nce would cause the spring t’ lose its power. And that would be very bad for us all.”

    “The faeries bring the power to the Lake?” Esther asked.

    “Some would th’nk they do,” David Crockett chuckled. “But no—they ‘nly sustain it.” 

    “Seem like a backard system,” Aaron muttered.

    “It may seem strange ‘oday, but one day you may see that each puzzle piece matters.”

    “So are all the monsters going to return to the Enchanted Forest?” Herbert wondered. “The Tsul ‘Kalu? The unicorn? Will the gate shut so the giant snake-monster stays inside? Is our dad going to be alright?”

    David Crockett smiled knowingly at the boy again. “What’s set in motion for your fath’r’s safety is set in motion,” replied he. “You needn’t worry, but only believe. As I said before, many monst’rs ‘er’ out there already—” 

    “—Hold on!” Aaron injected. “Ye’n means shettin’ the gap wadn’t evers gonna get ridda all them boogers round town?” 

    “I nev’r said it shall, young Aaron,” replied the Ghost. “Only that this forest must be protected from th’se outside.”

    “Well, don’t that amount to a poot in a windstorm?”

    David Crockett smiled at the young fiery man. “The gate will cl’se if you can succeed once more at your departure. And that shall keep Uktena ‘nd oth’rs at bay. The unicorn, my dear friend Diamond (for that ’s his Christian name), I sent ’n a quest for reasons that are yet t’ be told. As for Tsul ‘Kalu—‘y don’t you ask him yourself?” He pointed his glowing finger over the children. 

    There on the edge of the glade was the massive ape-figure Tsul ‘Kalu; his vibrant gray and yellow hair blew in the wind and brilliant white eyes flamed at them. 

    Before the children could respond fearfully, (although they found it was near impossible to be afraid in that place), Tsul ‘Kalu crossed the glade and addressed the Ghost. 

    “You were right, David,” said the ten-foot-tall Hairy Figure. “I have nothing but failure in our mission. The leaders in Virgin-ia care only for argument and their own dreary voices; there is no action in them. None would listen; I bade my offering, but the people merely formed fairy-tales of my search for a bride and murder of livestock. As if Tsul ‘Kalu did not have Ahyoka in Newton.”

    “I am sorry, friend,” replied Crockett. “I ‘ad hope f’r them.”

    Tsul ‘Kalu smirked. “You needn’t lie to make me feel better.” The ape-man studied the children. “I still don’t see it in them; but the stars never lie.” He turned back to David Crockett. “Has Diamond returned?” 

    David Crockett shook his head slowly and despondent. “I am uncertain of his return.” 

    Tsul ‘Kalu nodded knowingly. 

    “If I may,” said David Crockett. “Will you reconsid’r crossing the lake with me?” 

    “Tla, David,” replied Tsul ‘Kalu. “After I retrieve my wife, we shall disappear over the Southern Marsh. Good-bye, good Ghost.” Without another word, the ape-man stomped across the glade and turned northwest at its trees.

    “You see, children,” Crockett said. “E’erything has a purpose.” 

    “But who are you trying so hard to keep out of the forest?”

    A splash of hot wax hit the ground behind the children; they turned to see an oily stain burning into the grass. A pair of crocodile and snake-skinned shoes kicked the dirt and covered up the stain. And standing in those shoes was the thin, pale, and altogether unpleasant, Mr. Dauer. He held out his top-hat and bowed before the children. 

    “Speakin’ of that ol’ canker,” Aaron muttered under his breath and then shouted. “Get outta heres, booger-man!” 

    “Hello, old friend,” Mr. Dauer addressed the Ghost, ignoring Aaron. “What’s it been—one-hundred-sixty years?” 

    “Something like that,” replied David Crockett. “Why ‘re you in ‘y forest?” 

    The Top-Hat Man scowled and his neck twitched. “These wonderful children let me in, friend.” Here he opened his shaking arms and a cloud of dust puffed from his cufflinks. 

    “That’s a lie!” Herbert hollered at him. 

    “Be still.” David Crockett held his hand out to Herbert. “You needn’t adv’cate for me, while I adv’cate for you.” 

    “Herbert doesn’t know when to keep his mouth shut—do you, Herbert?” Mr. Dauer asked slyly. “Always opening it to lie and steal.” 

    “That’s enough!” Marian shouted. 

    The Top-Hat Man ignored her. “Did you always grow up blaming others and lying your way to your parents’ and sisters’ affections, Herbert? Are you doing that with David Crockett now, too? Will you ever actually deserve the love you get, Herbert—or will you just keep lying to get it?” 

    “Herbert,” whispered David Crockett. “Look ’t me.” 

    Herbert turned away from Mr. Dauer and looked at the Ghost. He was kneeling down next to him. “The Good Lord needn’t you t’ be perfect,” the Ghost looked him in the eyes and smiled. “And I needn’t that either. I just needeth you to trust me. Do you trust me, Herbert?” 

    Herbert nodded. With everything in him, he wanted so badly to hug the ghost, but knew he would go right through him. 

    The Ghost of David Crockett rose and faced Mr. Dauer. “Something beyond the Old Magic declares that you ‘ave already lost.”

    “And something tells me I’ll have another chance.” Mr. Dauer grinned. He reached his hand up and unplugged the cork from the side of his head. He tilted it, and wax and oil dripped on the ground. “See you soon, Dolors,” he said. And at the tap of his cane, he vanished before them.

    The children looked about the torn up glade and back to one another, searching for where the Top-Hat Man had disappeared to; but they saw only the rubble and debris of where the Army of Bones had emerged.

    “Don’t fret ‘bout him, children,” Crockett encouraged. “Now,” said he, moving a step back and gesturing to the Lake. “Drink. Taste and see that the water is refr’shing.” 

    The children hesitated. “But,” Marian rebutted, “Maushop said we weren’t allowed.” 

    “And ’t ‘nother time he was right. But t’day, you can drink. For t’day you need the waters, and another day, you shall need the bathe.” 

    The children came to the lake’s edge and bent down. Their cupped hands brought a mouthful to their lips. It tasted like honey on their tongues, but in their stomach it felt sour and bitter. 

    “Do this means we-all a-live forever?” Aaron asked, wiping the residue from his lips. 

    David Crockett chuckled and shook his head. “No, you would ‘ave t’ die in the waters t’ b’come et’rnal,” replied David Crockett. “However, it shall protect you against some sirens and spells.” 

    “‘at don’t make a speck a sense,” Aaron muttered. 

    At that moment, something wonderful and miraculous began to occur. A flurry of humming wind crept from all four corners of the glade. The children wondered if it were an incoming rain until they saw the glowing flicker of faeries illuminating on the trees and forest-floor. Millions of twinkling lights—pinks, blues, reds, oranges, purples, greens, and yellows—came from all directions, and surrounded the children like a tornado of color and light. They were blinding and fantastic, terrifying and exhilarating; buzzing torpedoes of light shooting around each of them in a graceful dance of joy and harmony. 

    Herbert felt the gentle tug of Noya on his shirt collar and bowed his head to feel the beautiful damsel kiss him on the cheek and watch her wave him a goodbye; she had found her home and Laurel family again, and for that he was overwhelmed with a joy he did not know he had inside. 

    She was gone in a second; amidst all the wild anthem of color and blurring wind. He searched through it, with happy tears in his eyes, until he caught a glimpse of her familiar emerald glow emanating in the canvas of color. All the while, the dance pulsated in lights, colors, and grace. One moment, they thought they comprehended that the dance formed a kind of story about the birth of the forest and the people chosen to protect it, but in the next instant it became confusing and nonsense again. A moment later it was a story about a nation of people separated by a great, rushing river; and the next, they saw the story of the water-spider that brought fire to the first peoples. Then, they saw the story of Tsul ‘Kalu finding his bride in the foothills and visiting her every night under the cover of darkness until their wedding night. Then, they saw the story of Uktena and how men would travel all over the forest to find it, to test their worth and mettle; and whomever retrieved the beast’s flaming crest would earn the rank of Wonder-Worker among the tribe. The stories of light and color lasted hours, but the faeries danced and pranced about the spring waters as if time did not matter to them, even long after the children had left. 

    David Crockett led them through the western path across the Dead Valley, back to the Pactolus. “I am v’ry pleased you came, child-ren,” the Ghost said. “And so proud you ‘ave banded together.” 

    “David Crockett,” Marian said. She held his ancient journal in her trembling hands. “The journal you left behind. I read it several times but never understood it. I’ve heard words said today—like the Nunnehi. Who are they? What does this all mean?” 

    “The book ’s already finish’d,” Crockett smiled. “The reader just need t’ learn how t’ read the pages.”

    “I don’t understand.” 

    “Keep it. One day you will.” 

    The Ghost took off his coonskin hat and held it between his hands. “Herbert,” said he. “I need you t’ do something verily important for me.” 

    “Okay,” Herbert said, bowing his head reverently.

    The Ghost of David Crockett pulled from his hat a glowing cougar artifact, identical to the one still in Herbert’s hands. “I told you that once more you must accomplish something for me. In this, I need you t’ return it t’ the gate whence you leave. The artifact you possess now won’t work henceforth. But you can keep it as a memento. I can’t hand this one to you, you know. I’m a ghost, after all. So you must take ’t from me.” Herbert reached to remove the glowing artifact out of his hand, and just as he extended his fingers, it dropped through David Crockett’s hand and landed in the grass. The glowing artifact no longer looked translucent and blue, but ordinary as the one in his hands.

    “Oh,” Herbert said, examining the two artifacts. “It’s not like the other one. Or…I think it got damaged. There’s a chip on the side of the cougar’s face.” 

    “I’m sure ’twas always there, Herbert,” David Crockett smiled. “No need to fret. Just make sure to insert the correct one into the gate for me.”

    “Yes, sir,” Herbert replied.

    “And Esther,” David Crockett looked at the sweet young girl with pig-tails and muddy sneakers. “’tis only fair that you r’ceive something, too, as your sist’r has ‘y journal and Herbert the artifact.” He removed from his hat a yellow marigold, just like the one she had pulled from the riverbank; its smell was rich, ripe, and full like honey. “It shall ne’er wilt,” said the Ghost. “And I’m sure it shall bring you favor.”

    Esther took the flower from his hand and a tear dropped onto the top of it. “Thank you,” she whispered, and placed it in her pig-tail.

    “What bout me?” Aaron shouted snidely.

    David Crockett smiled. “Your gift is nothing at-all, Aaron,” said he. “Because ’n that gift you will gain the most.” 

    Aaron’s jaw dropped and he shook his head like he might curse.

    “I’m happy we met, children,” said the Ghost. “But I also must warn you. Life has a habit of growing much hard’r after one accomplishes something great. It ne’er becomes easier; only more meaningful. Remember that I shall always be near, as I was ’n the forest.”

    He put his coonskin hat on his head, threw his long rifle over his shoulder, and bowed before them. “Dolor children. Aaron. I wish you a merry goodbye. Your parents are wait’ng for you, and I’m sure you best get home afore they get too worried. The gate will ‘emain open ‘ntil you leave.”

    The blue mist faded like a foggy morning meeting the warmth of the rising sun, and the Ghost drifted away. His eyes remained in the air for a moment longer than the rest of his translucent body until nothing was left but a flash and sparkle of light.


  • The Army of Bones


    The Army of Bones

    Chapter 20

    Through the gate, up the hill, running through Long Creek, over the steep mountain, down its rocky backside, across Weeper’s Run, along the shelf upon Dark Canyon, between Fool’s Pass, skipping on the downs, rounding Lake Pactolus, and cutting across her deep, rushing river.

    They had left the house at once. The cougar figurine was the artifact! And with adrenaline coursing through their veins and a mild understanding of the path, the journey past twice as fast. 

    The sun cocked in the mid-afternoon sky, baking their backs, and yet not one of them grew tired or frustrated. The forest was a familiar home now; birds, trees, and scurrying animals were their distant cousins. Strange noises and creeping critters reminded them of happy times, climbing over mountains and pressing through thickets, clutching Balaam’s hide and following his direction. 

    They crossed the Pactolus eagerly, keeping an ever watchful eye out for the Rock Faeries, like Noya had shown them. On its far side, they laughed while recalling the joy they had of swimming and drinking from the cool, refreshing lake with Balaam. Water splashed against their bare feet while they stole up the shore in skips and fervent delight. On the upper coast, Marian handed out snacks she had stolen from the kitchen, and each of them refilled their water bottles, before heading inland across the Dead Valley. After a hot half-hour, they were at the felled sugar-berry. Aaron and Herbert stepped in first, holding branches down with their feet, and others up with their hands, until the girls past.

    The group emerged on the far side, huffing and puffing in a thick, humid sweat. They brushed the leaves and debris from their faces and hair to see the peaceful Field of Atagahi; the deer dallied, the bears bumbled, and the rabbits rolled. Maushop was still leaning against the weeping willow, with his right hand dipped in the lake, as if he hadn’t moved a muscle since they had left him the day before; though his frown had turned shades gloomier. 

    “Good afternoon, Maushop,” Marian greeted him.

    He looked a bit surprised to see them and smiled meekly. “Dolor children,” replied the giant. “You’re back sooner than I expected. What has changed?”

    “We found out we had what we needed all along,” Esther replied. “Right, Herbert?” 

    Herbert reached into his pocket and pulled out a bundle of cloth. He unwrapped the elegant cougar figurine.

    “The artifact,” Maushop’s voice rolled like a bowling ball down its alley. 

    Something in Herbert told him he was to go to the grave without his sisters and Aaron. He left them beside the sugar-berry and crossed the ryegrass field in silence. Noya flittered next to him as he approached the feeble pillar of stones on the far end, opposite the ever-watching giant. 

    He rolled the figurine in his hands, and held it out in front of the large, flat piece of stone. Staring at it, he realized how much the thing had scared him before. But he never simply stopped to examine and appreciate its beauty. Its soapy white marble patterns and gemstone eyes shimmered in the daylight. How could something that caused him so much regret and pain be so beautiful now? He didn’t know what to expect, or even what an Army of Bones amounted to, but the act of placing the figurine back left him with an unbearable feeling; it felt so sacred and surreal. It felt like fear, but not terrible fear; if there were a word for it, he did not know it yet. Before him, the headstone’s inscription stared at him: “Leave your regrets here to regain life there.” He closed his eyes and prayed. 

    The rest of the group stood still waiting and wondering if something was wrong. Marian took a step forward, ready to help, but just then Herbert opened his eyes and shoved the eight-point star into the hole. 

    A raspy, clicking motion came from inside the headstone, and Herbert realized the cairn was more intricate than he had first believed; it sounded hollow and full of machinery. Herbert stepped back, and the earth below his feet shook, reminding him of the forest gate opening. Then, suddenly, like lightning hit it, the headstone splintered at the ground and a crack ran up its center. The cougar figurine fell from the face, and Herbert picked it up, confused and a bit afraid. The deer, rabbits, groundhogs, skunks, and bears ran from the field, the birds became silent and disappeared.

    Maushop stood to his feet. “Live again,” he whispered, and a tear ran down his cheek. 

    Next to Herbert, a skeleton arm burst through the earth. Millipedes and earthworms wiggled through the digits, dirt dripped off the forearm, and the arm wagged about before grabbing his sneaker. He fell to the ground and screamed. Another hand ripped up beside his head and clawed at the earth, trying to free itself from its earthly jailhouse. 

    “Herbert!” The others screamed and ran for him. 

    The skeleton hand let go of Herbert’s foot, desiring to dig itself free from the earth instead of hold on to Herbert’s shoe. At once, Aaron, Marian, and Esther were pummeling into Herbert and helping him up. All around them, dirt clods flew six feet into the air like little flak grenades, skeleton appendages burst from the ground, and a dull but ever-spreading moaning and groaning emitted beneath them like a zombie anthem. The children imagined hundreds, if not thousands, of skeletons were waiting to rip through the ground. They raced for the tree line, hammering through, with eyes shut and shoulders lowered, as rockets of dirt and grass hit the sky, and skeleton digits arched left and right in the air. 

    Enough of the dirt had hurled itself up now, and full skeletons were emerging from the soil and hobbling about the field. They stumbled through the grass, dug out their lost appendages, and helped others escape the soiled prison. Dirt, grass, and insects fell through their hollow insides as they staggered on their rickety legs. 

    Herbert sprinted past a skeleton struggling to attach its lower jaw to its face. Marian shrieked at one using a hand it found to brush a dead grasshopper off its teeth. Aaron tripped over a femur that was being used by a legless skeleton to drag to its other extremities. Esther ran into, and then whacked away, one holding its own skull in its hands like a basketball and shaking a colony of angry ants off of it; the skeleton bounced away clumsily and screwed its skull back to its spine. The field was alive with dead people. 

    The entire time they ran shrieking and tumbling through the field, Noya found it hilarious and spent her time laughing and twirling; but the children did not understand her pantomimic movements and assumed she was frightened into delirium. They made it to the sugar-berry and cowered behind one of its large felled branches.

    Herbert closed his eyes. “I’ve done it again,” he whispered. “It’s all my fault.”

    Noya tapped him on the shoulder, but he kept his eyes shut. She flew in front of his face and poked him in the eye. 

    “Ow!” He opened his eyes to see what she pointed feverishly toward. 

    Two-hundred skeletons, frail, pale and disjointed, had gathered in front of the cairn of rocks and stone. And then, something even more magical began happening. A soft purple and red coloration burst from the dry bones and Herbert thought for a moment they were exploding; but then he saw the skeletons were forming purple muscles, pink tendons, and yellow marrow around each joint. Veins and arteries rippled out like a sea anemone and snaked their way around the skeleton, wrapping the ribs, pelvis, kneecaps, feet and skull. A piece of red flesh pulsated at the center like a jellyfish, under the sternum. It burst open, and again he thought it was something horrific and vulgar; but realized then it was the heart pumping blood into the arteries and out all over the muscles and bones, dripping down the chest, waist and thighs. And just as he feared the blood would drain all over the grass, the skin formed and laced itself over the back, stomach, hips, and face. 

    The skeletons weren’t skeletons anymore. They were fully formed men and women, though not one of them was taller than Marian. An army of two hundred, bare, olive-skinned men and women standing in the field before the grave. They looked at one another in bouts of confusion and awe, speaking an incomprehensible language.

    “My little people,” Maushop cried. The giant crossed the field in a single bound, dropped to his knees before the crowd, and wept. “I had lost you, my little people.” His face kissed the ground before them. “But now you are alive again.” 

    The crowd of newly formed people left the grave behind and ran to the giant man. They were laughing and giggling as many leapt onto his back and climbed his shoulders, while others hugged his feet and legs. He stood erect, towering in the sky, while the army clutched hold of his shoulders, waist and back; others ran and danced about him singing songs and whistling in delight.

    “And now I can serve you again,” his voice boomed. “Let me find a home for us to belong.” 

    The giant turned in stride and in two powerful steps stood at the edge of the Lake. The four children dashed forward, bewildered. They watched the two hundred laugh, skip, dance and sing, following their hero into the Lake. A thick, heavenly mist rolled over the mountain and came onto the Lake in an instant, covering the party in its white, creamy shroud; like a blurry evaporation, they slowly left the children’s view. The company teemed with joy and excitement, jumping and cheering as they disappeared onto the far side of Atagahi. 

    Just before Maushop completely left her view, Marian caught a glimpse of a small woman resting on the giant’s shoulder. Her hand stroked his massive neck, and her head nestled in his ear-lobe. “Squannit is alive again,” she said, smiling. 

    “That hem wife?” Aaron asked.

    “Yes,” she replied.

    “I don’t know what we just did,” Herbert said. “But I’m glad we did it.”


  • As Big as a Giant


    As Big as a Giant

    Chapter 19

    That evening, after a short, late supper, Herbert made his way upstairs to his room on the third floor. Dark and still, the room felt claustrophobic and unremarkable compared to the vast and lively forest he had spent his day in. He threw his stained, sweaty clothes on the floor and pulled a pair of Godzilla pajamas over his head. 

    A dim green light was flickering like a lightning bug underneath the pile of clothing. Herbert, curious, pulled the shirt and pants back to reveal Noya sitting at the center of his bedroom; the faerie had waited for him since she fled his mother’s presence. 

    Faerie’s do not like the human-world, and much less the presence of adults, who they find too sensible and careful. At the first sight of Mrs. Dolor, Noya had fled like a cottontail; but without a home to run to, she had aimed for the only thing she could think of: the Dolor house. She had flitted through the back door beside the garage and down the hall, past the study, guest bathroom, and nearly bumped right into Mr. Dolor, who had stepped out of his bedroom after a recent shower. 

    She had jolted into the space below the stairwell where the kids hide their toys during the day, and waited for the coast to be clear. At once, she realized she had made a terrible mistake and had aimed to leave immediately, but heard Mrs. Dolor and the kids coming back inside. Not knowing if their were a better option, and already regretting the decision to leave Herbert and his sisters without saying goodbye, she decided to flutter upstairs. 

    One…two…three! She spun round the stairway and up the stairwell to the second floor, assured that the kids hadn’t seen her as they gathered in the kitchen with their mother. Having peeked into room after room, she looked for what would be Herbert’s. After settling for Marian and Esther’s bedroom, she then noticed the small staircase leading up to the attic door. Success! She had seen what must have been his room through the space between the threshold. She had managed to wedge herself between and hid safely in Herbert’s bedroom until his return.

    When once he recognized her, Herbert rushed forward and exclaimed! “Oh, Starlight! I’m so glad you are here!” 

    She touched her chin and spread her palms out at him, gesturing playfully. He smiled and wished she were the same size as him so he could hug her; they settled for her hugging his forefinger. It was nice to not be alone in his room anymore.

    He sat down at his writing desk in the corner, and she fluttered to the top of it. “I’m sorry we never found your home, Starlight,” he said. “But you can always live here.” 

    She nodded and smiled, before looking around the room, and scrunching her face up like she smelled something bad. Noya wasn’t about to sign a deed, but she was happy to receive the gesture. She shrugged her shoulders, and walked around the top of the drawer. 

    “The girls have a pet, so it’ll be nice to have someone of my own,” Herbert said, before looking down and making sure he didn’t offend the faerie. She didn’t seem to notice what he had implied. She, of course, was no pet. 

    Instead, Noya was walking to the back of the writing desk and pointed at a small drawer.

    “Oh, that,” Herbert said. 

    He pulled the drawer open and removed the broken cougar figurine he had hidden away three weeks prior. His thumb brushed across the delicate sharp teeth on the white and gray soapstone figurine, before placing it on the desk in front of Noya; it was about the same size as her. She placed her hands on the head of the stone figurine and pet the stiff, delicate hair, like she were brushing it back.  

    “It’s pretty, isn’t it?” Herbert asked.

    She nodded and smiled at him. Her gentle hands ran down the back of it, where the tail should have been. The figurine didn’t have a back end, though. Herbert had assumed he’d broken it off the gate, but the faerie discovered the back end of the figurine wasn’t broken at all; eight sharp points were jutting out like a star. She glanced back-and-forth at Herbert and pointing to the figurine. 

    He put his forehead on the desk, despondent. “But it’s not pretty,” he mumbled. “It’s all my fault, Starlight.” Something about the little green faerie’s presence, whether her inability to speak or her warm disposition, gave him the safety to talk about his sins. 

    “I don’t know what’s going to happen to Dad, now. Mom’s mad at us. And monsters are gonna keep getting out all over town. And I did it, Starlight. I broke that stupid thing off the gate and the door opened. And then, I let Esther take the blame, too! And she almost died because of it! I suppose I could show you to Mom and Dad—but who knows what they would say or do if they saw a faerie? Good luck, if they don’t stick you in some science experiment instead of listening to us. Or handing you over to Professor Wolfgang.” 

    He sighed and watched the emerald faerie dance on the desk. In his depressed delirium, he reached for the cougar figurine next to her. She lunged forward, pulling at his thumb, and tried to show him her discovery. He shook his hand free and wiped a tear from his eye before grabbing the thing with his other hand. Noya flew into the air, pointing feverishly at the cougar figurine. 

    “Starlight, your light is too bright,” said he. “I can’t see what you are trying to say. Can’t you dim it?” 

    Knock. Knock.

    Herbert jerked his head at the bedroom door. He tossed the cougar figurine into the trash bin next to his desk. Noya flew behind a stuffed-bear on top of his bed. The door creaked open and Mr. Dolor entered. 

    “Herbert?” He stuck his head in and flicked the light on. “Why are you sitting in the dark, son?” 

    “Hi, Dad,” answered Herbert.

    “You okay?” 

    “Yeah.” 

    Mr. Dolor crossed the room and sat on Herbert’s bed, noticing the tears in his son’s eyes. He grabbed a stuffed raccoon and put in under his elbow, not noticing the little green faerie dashing across the bedspread behind him. 

    “I missed you today, son,” said Mr. Dolor. 

    “I know,” Herbert replied. “Mom said you made a treehouse for us. That’s really neat. I’m sorry we weren’t here—”

    “No,” Mr. Dolor interrupted. “You don’t need to be sorry. It’s my fault. I’ve been away at the office too much. And you have been trying to get used to a new town. It’s not your fault I’ve been gone and suddenly show up.”

    Herbert frowned and looked down.

    “But don’t worry,” Mr. Dolor continued, “I think some things are in the works, so I don’t have to be gone from the house as much.” 

    The two sat in silence for what felt like half an hour, but was probably only thirty seconds.

    “What’s the matter, boy?” Mr. Dolor asked. “Why are you so upset, sitting in the dark and not talking? You’re not acting like my adventurous young man, Herb.” 

    “It’s nothing,” Herbert answered quickly, staring at the floor.

    “Son…” Mr. Dolor dropped to the floor and knelt before Herbert. “I’m here. Talk to me.”

    Herbert looked at his father. Dad always gave him strength. 

    “I did something bad,” Herbert said. 

    “Okay.”

    “And I let someone else take the blame. It doesn’t matter anymore—I guess—what I did, but I just feel bad.” 

    Mr. Dolor’s lips briefly curled. His eyes were caring. “That’s called integrity, Herbert.”

    “Integrity?” 

    “Integrity is when something you’ve done eats at you until you fix it. What do we always say Herbert: Quick to apologize—”

    “—quick to forgive,” Herbert recited.

    “If you done something wrong, you need to apologize, Herbert. Integrity is everything, son. It’s as big as a giant that you can never really get past. Be the same, whether someone is looking or not. Always remember that.” 

    Herbert furrowed his brow and sucked his lips. 

    “But Herbert, remember something else,” Mr. Dolor said. He lifted his arm to Herbert’s shoulder. 

    Herbert looked up at him.

    “Someone else took all the blame before, too. And He did it so that you don’t have to beat yourself up forever. Forgive yourself. And remember that your father is proud of you. Always.”

    Herbert looked down at the trash bin next to him.

    ***

    The next morning, Herbert felt awful. He had hoped that his sleep would take away all the feelings of guilt, and for a little while it did. He had dreamt about running through a field with friendly dinosaurs after wild turkeys while giant bumblebees soared overhead; he had dreamt about his name being cheered across the school after he slam-dunked a ball in class; he had dreamt about driving a race-car through the city and off a cliff before it turned into a jet that he flew across the ocean. But when he opened his eyes, and the world slowly passed over him, he remembered his mistake and his heart ached again. After breakfast, he decided what he must do to make sure that figurine never bothered him again. 

    Later, the children met in the new tree-house to play. Herbert was coloring a picture next to Noya, while Esther read her book about a warren of adventurous rabbits. Marian held David Crockett’s journal tight against her chest, wishing she could figure out what they did wrong. All its contents still made little sense; brief words about the Pardo Stone; confusing descriptions of the Nunnehi and Chaneques. But none of these words ended up meaning anything on their journey. Why wasn’t there something about Spearfinger or Uktena, or even crossing the Pactolus. Why did they ever even waste their time on this book, and why did they ever waste their time on this journey? She noticed Aaron riding his bicycle in circles in front of the Dolor’s house. 

    “Aaron!” She hollered from the tree. His bike turned and entered the yard. 

    He threw the bike into the grass and grabbed the two-by-four nailed into the trunk of the tree. His elbows appeared over the floor of the treehouse and he lifted himself up. The Dolors smiled when they saw him. 

    “An’body else get up athinkin’ they’n dreamt all a-that?” Aaron asked, catching his breath. He looked at the green faerie walking in the middle of the treehouse and smiled. 

    “It’s funny,” Esther agreed. “Something about not being there anymore makes it feel like we never were.” 

    “What should we do?” Marian asked the group.

    Noya stood on Herbert’s sneakers and tugged at his coloring book. He looked at her, and she scolded him, pulling her wagging finger out. 

    “Ess,” Herbert said.

    “Yes?” She replied.

    “I need to confess something.” Tears formed around his eyes, and his bottom lip quivered. “I let you take the blame for opening the gate. But it’s not true.”

    “What do you mean?” Esther asked.

    Herbert pulled the cougar figurine from his pocket. “I broke this off the gate,” he explained. “That’s when the ground started shaking. And when the gate swung open.  And when the Tsul ‘Kalu came out, and the unicorn, and black mist, and David Crockett. I don’t think you really did anything. You both said we shouldn’t touch it or try to get in, but I was climbing around the corner of the gate and I broke this off the wall.” 

    He handed Esther the figurine, and a tear fell off his nose. Marian put her hand on his shoulder.

    Aaron pursed his lips and sighed. “I bean hecka rotten to you-all sence ye’n a-moved heres,” he said. The siblings looked at him. “Ye’ns good-all friends. I jist—” He frowned and looked at the floorboards. “I ain’t got a-many friends lak you-all. I sory fer bean so nhasty to ya, Herbert, and a-fightin’ witcha, Marian.” 

    “Friends fight.” Marian smiled at him. “We forgive you.” 

    Noya fluttered up to Aaron’s cheek; her orange light shone in the sunshine while she kissed him. 

    “‘ey!” He shouted. “I ai’nt knows abouten all a-that kinda stuff. I jist needs to say sory, twos.” 

    “Herbert!” Esther seemed distracted from all the apologies and was far more interested in the cougar figurine. “Where did you say you got this?”

    “I broke it off the wall next to the gate,” replied he.

    “I don’t think it’s broken, Herb,” she said. “Look at this end—Herbert, I think you found the artifact that goes to David Crockett’s grave!”

    “What?” Herbert asked.

    “Look!” The children peered over Esther and looked at the piece of soapstone. The eight-point star looked identical to the missing piece from the gravesite. 

    “We ready?” Marian begged.

    “I’m ready!”

    “Let’s do it!”

    “Hawt dawg!” 


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